2024 Bug Chasing and Gift Giving Survey Results
Thank you to those of you who participated in the 2024 Bug Chasing and Gift Giving Survey, which consisted of 32 questions, plus 5 free text questions where participants could provide more information. Your involvement is greatly appreciated, as this survey would be nothing without you. This page includes the survey results in text format due to time constraints, but hopefully we can eventually graph the data.
This was the 4th survey conducted at Curious Chaser, with total of 491 responses received between January 1, 2024 and December 31, 2024. To keep the insight relevant, a new survey is conducted annually, with new and improved question and answer sets, so hopefully you will participate in the 2025 survey so we can continue to understand ourselves better, which is the purpose of this survey.
As each question in this survey was optional, participants could choose which questions they wanted to answer, so you will notice that not all of the questions will achieve the full number of responses based on the total number of participants and as some of the questions allowed respondents to choose multiple responses, this is why some of the responses exceed the total number of participants.
It’s important for you to understand that this is not a scientific survey and the results have not been validated in any way, which means this data is provided for general information only and must not be used for decision making or for any other purpose. It was impressive to see so many comments provided this year, which gives us a deeper insight into our thoughts and experiences related to chasing and giving.
Q01. Where do you currently reside?
Argentina (1)
Australia (24)
Austria (1)
Belgium (4)
Brazil (4)
Canada (28)
Czech Republic (1)
Denmark (3)
France (3)
Germany (9)
Italy (6)
Japan (3)
Mexico (5)
Netherlands (13)
New Zealand (5)
Norway (1)
Pakistan (1)
Poland (1)
Portugal (2)
Romania (1)
Singapore (1)
Slovenia (1)
South Africa (3)
Sweden (3)
Spain (2)
United Kingdom (49)
United States of America – Alabama (4)
United States of America – Alaska (0)
United States of America – Arizona (9)
United States of America – Arkansas (0)
United States of America – California (34)
United States of America – Colorado (7)
United States of America – Connecticut (6)
United States of America – Delaware (0)
United States of America – Florida (19)
United States of America – Georgia (8)
United States of America – Hawaii (0)
United States of America – Idaho (2)
United States of America – Illinois (10)
United States of America – Indiana (4)
United States of America – Iowa (4)
United States of America – Kansas (4)
United States of America – Kentucky (2)
United States of America – Louisiana (1)
United States of America – Maine (2)
United States of America – Maryland (3)
United States of America – Massachusetts (3)
United States of America – Michigan (5)
United States of America – Minnesota (8)
United States of America – Mississippi (1)
United States of America – Missouri (3)
United States of America – Montana (0)
United States of America – Nebraska (3)
United States of America – Nevada (5)
United States of America – New Hampshire (1)
United States of America – New Jersey (7)
United States of America – New Mexico (2)
United States of America – New York (13)
United States of America – North Carolina (4)
United States of America – North Dakota (0)
United States of America – Ohio (8)
United States of America – Oklahoma (8)
United States of America – Oregon (7)
United States of America – Pennsylvania (7)
United States of America – Puerto Rico (0)
United States of America – Rhode Island (1)
United States of America – South Carolina (2)
United States of America – South Dakota (0)
United States of America – Tennessee (5)
United States of America – Texas (24)
United States of America – Utah (2)
United States of America – Vermont (0)
United States of America – Virginia (6)
United States of America – Washington (11)
United States of America – Washington DC (3)
United States of America – West Virginia (2)
United States of America – Wisconsin (11)
United States of America – Wyoming (0)
Q02. Which category describes your age?
18 to 21 years of age (16)
22 to 25 years of age (30)
26 to 30 years of age (60)
31 to 35 years of age (53)
36 to 40 years of age (55)
41 to 45 years of age (58)
46 to 50 years of age (52)
51 to 55 years of age (41)
56 to 60 years of age (54)
61 to 65 years of age (22)
66 to 70 years of age (7)
Over 70 years of age (10)
Q03. What is your ethnicity?
African-American (4)
American Indian or Alaskan Native (4)
Asian (9)
Caucasian (391)
Latino or Hispanic (26)
Native Hawaiian or Pacific Islander (1)
Multiple Races (13)
Other Ethnicity (6)
Q04. How would you describe your penis?
Circumcised – I love being cut (142)
Circumcised – I would prefer to be uncut (149)
Uncircumcised – I love being uncut (133)
Uncircumcised – I would prefer to be cut (29)
Q05. What is your sexual role?
Bottom (215)
Side (1)
Top (16)
Versatile (71)
Versatile Bottom (129)
Versatile Top (25)
Q06. Do you or have you used any of the following recreational drugs?
Amyl (217)
Bath Salts (9)
Benzodiazepine (33)
Cannabis (223)
Cocaine (130)
Ecstacy (111)
Fentanyl (5)
GHB (102)
Heroin (11)
Ketamine (81)
LSD (51)
Methadone (6)
Methamphetamine (147)
Morphine (10)
Oxycodone (29)
Steroids (19)
Other (39)
Q06B. Do you think methamphetamine usage has increased your desire to become HIV-positive?
Unlikely (43)
Possibly (38)
Likely (33)
Definitely (33)
Q07. What do you consider your current HIV status to be?
Negative – Not Taking PrEP (253)
Negative – Taking PrEP – Apretrude (2)
Negative – Taking PrEP – Descovy (18)
Negative – Taking PrEP – Truvada (27)
Negative – Taking PrEP – Other/Generic (9)
Positive – Detectable (50)
Positive – Undetectable (50)
Unsure – Probably Negative (41)
Unsure – Probably Positive (9)
Q07B. If you are currently taking antiretroviral medication, which drug are you using?
Atripla (1)
Biktarvy (7)
Descovy (1)
Genvoya (3)
Juluca (1)
Odefsey (4)
Pifeltro (1)
Retrovir (1)
Symtuza (1)
Triumeq (3)
Other (4)
Q08. When did you last get tested for a Sexually Transmitted Infection?
Within the past month (60)
Within the past 3 months (125)
Within the past 6 months (65)
Within the past 9 months (13)
Within the past 12 months (45)
Within the past 1 to 2 years (42)
Within the past 3 to 5 years (34)
More than 5 years ago (23)
Never been tested (53)
Q08B. Did your test results change since your last test?
No – the results were still the same (241)
Yes – Different STI for the first time (19)
Yes – Several STI’s for the first time (7)
Yes – Previously diagnosed STI again (16)
Yes – Several previously diagnosed STIs again (9)
Yes – Different STI and a previously diagnosed STI again (8)
Q09. Have you ever had any of the following Sexually Transmitted Infections?
Chancroid (4)
Chlamydia (178)
Epididymitis (11)
Gonorrhoea (194)
Hepatitis A (HAV) (21)
Hepatitis B (HBV) (30)
Hepatitis C (HCV) (27)
Herpes Simplex Virus (HSV) (82)
Human Immunodeficiency Virus (HIV-1) (89)
Human Immunodeficiency Virus (HIV-2) (18)
Human Papillomavirus (HPV) (64)
Lymphogranuloma Venereum (LGV) (5)
Molluscum Contagiosum (9)
Non-Specific Urethritis (NSU) (19)
Proctitis (11)
Pubic Lice (77)
Scabies (36)
Syphilis (147)
Trichomoniasis (6)
Q10. How would you define your bug chasing status?
Active Chaser – Actively chasing HIV only (90)
Active Chaser – Actively chasing HIV, plus other STIs (74)
Active Chaser – Actively chasing STIs, but not HIV (2)
Curious Chaser – Curious about chasing HIV only (71)
Curious Chaser – Curious about chasing HIV and other STIs (40)
Curious Chaser – Curious about chasing STIs, but not HIV (6)
Former Chaser – Successfully chased HIV and no longer chasing (10)
Former Chaser – Successfully chased HIV and other STIs, but no longer chasing (3)
Inactive Chaser – Bug chasing is only a fantasy (31)
Passive Chaser – Accept whatever happens (70)
Successful Chaser – Successfully chased HIV, and still chasing (27)
Successful Chaser – Successfully chased HIV and other STIs, and still chasing (19)
Q11. What was your age when you first started thinking about bug chasing?
Under 16 years of age (33)
16 to 17 years of age (33)
18 to 21 years of age (69)
22 to 25 years of age (67)
26 to 30 years of age (59)
31 to 35 years of age (49)
36 to 40 years of age (28)
41 to 45 years of age (37)
46 to 50 years of age (25)
51 to 55 years of age (25)
56 to 60 years of age (13)
61 to 70 years of age (5)
Over 70 years of age (0)
Q12. If you have actively chased, what was your age when you first started chasing?
Under 16 years of age (12)
16 to 17 years of age (8)
18 to 21 years of age (27)
22 to 25 years of age (43)
26 to 30 years of age (38)
31 to 35 years of age (42)
36 to 40 years of age (20)
41 to 45 years of age (25)
46 to 50 years of age (16)
51 to 55 years of age (18)
56 to 60 years of age (13)
61 to 70 years of age (3)
Over 70 years of age (1)
Q13. Which option(s) describe your connection to bug chasing?
Acceptance – Poz men would be more willing to have sex with me if I was poz (64)
Attraction – I find poz men more sexually appealing and attractive (149)
Community – Want to become part of the poz community (80)
Conditioning – Believe society thinks all gay people have HIV or AIDS (21)
Connection – Being tethered to someone for the rest of my life (52)
Curiosity – Curious about what it’s like to be poz (57)
Desire – Something within me makes me feel the need to be poz (148)
Destruction – I am aroused by becoming sick and/or dying from the virus (54)
Family – Becoming infected would help create a family and a legacy (17)
Fantasy – Bug chasing is just a fantasy or sexual fetish (84)
Freedom – Being poz enables me to have more sexual freedom (112)
Guilt – Friends and/or family have passed away from AIDS (2)
Identity – Associate being poz as a part of being gay (33)
Lonely – Needing to be part of something different (15)
Political – To honour and respect those who have died (8)
Power – Having the ability to infect others with HIV (67)
Relief – No longer having to worry about contracting HIV (95)
Reproduction – Carrying the virus is similar to being pregnant (69)
Risk – The intense sensation when having risky sex (167)
Romance – Being pozzed creates a permanent bond with someone (53)
Science – Due to modern science I am more comfortable being poz (50)
Social – I know people who are poz and I want to be like them (22)
Submission – Accepting what a dominant top wants to give me (114)
Taboo – Doing something that is considered taboo and risky (154)
Other – There is a reason not listed here(2)
Q14. Which Sexually Transmitted Infection(s) are you chasing?
Chancroid (16)
Chlamydia (94)
Epididymitis (16)
Gonorrhoea (98)
Hepatitis A (HAV) (24)
Hepatitis B (HBV) (31)
Hepatitis C (HCV) (48)
Herpes Simplex Virus (HSV) (48)
Human Immunodeficiency Virus (HIV-1) (305)
Human Immunodeficiency Virus (HIV-2) (245)
Human papillomavirus (HPV) (38)
Lymphogranuloma Venereum (LGV) (15)
Molluscum Contagiosum (14)
Non-Specific Urethritis (NSU) (18)
Proctitis (14)
Pubic Lice (24)
Scabies (18)
Syphilis (83)
Trichomoniasis (16)
Q15. How does bug chasing make you feel?
Afraid – I am scared about what might happen (63)
Aroused – I get turned on by the increased risk (275)
Ashamed – I could never admit to being a bug chaser (56)
Comfortable – I feel good about who I am (66)
Confused – I cannot understand why I feel this way (68)
Excited – It makes me feel more alive (170)
Horny – My hormones are driven wild (237)
Naughty – I feel bad, but in a good way (167)
Nervous – Thinking about it makes me feel nervous (69)
Neutral – I’m not sure how I feel about it (14)
Proud – I’m happy to tell others about myself (44)
Struggling – I am finding it tough to accept myself (26)
Worried – I am concerned about the impacts (43)
Other – There is something else I feel (3)
Q16. What is your preferred method of HIV infection?
Anonymous – Getting infected from someone I do not know (54)
App – Getting infected from someone via a hookup app (28)
Buddy – Getting infected from a regular fuck buddy (29)
Partner – Getting infected from a boyfriend or partner (26)
Party – Getting infected at a bareback or conversion party (70)
Public – Getting infected at a bathhouse, sex club or sauna (47)
Slamming – Getting infected from blood slamming (15)
Stealthing – Getting infected secretly and finding out later (9)
Various – No preference or a combination of these options (115)
Other – There is a reason not listed here (7)
Q17. What is your main thought about the ‘fuck flu’ whilst seroconverting?
Excited – I cannot wait to experience the symptoms (58)
Happy – I look forward to welcoming the fuck flu (14)
Horny – I want to keep fucking raw during the fuck flu (115)
Nervous – I am feeling anxious about the experience (51)
Neutral – I am not really sure how I feel about it (60)
Nothing – I don’t think the fuck flu will be very serious (19)
Resigned – I accept it’s part of the conversion process (48)
Worried – I am concerned about becoming really sick (26)
Other – There is a reason not listed here (6)
Q18. When do you plan on taking antiretroviral medication if you get infected?
Immediately (24)
Within 1 to 3 months (18)
Within 3 to 6 months (6)
Within 6 to 9 months (5)
Within 9 to 12 months (11)
Within 1 to 2 years (5)
Within 2 to 3 years (5)
Within 3 to 4 years (1)
Within 4 to 5 years (3)
When a healthcare professional advises I should (68)
When my body tells me I need to (95)
Before I develop AIDS (53)
Never (60)
Q19. Do you plan on getting a poz-centric tattoo if you become poz?
No – I will not get a poz-centric tattoo (121)
Yes – I will get a baphomet symbol (12)
Yes – I will get a biohazard symbol (157)
Yes – I will get a black widow spider symbol (4)
Yes – I will get a high voltage symbol (5)
Yes – I will get a pig and biohazard symbol (28)
Yes – I will get a plus numerical symbol (6)
Yes – I will get a scorpion symbol (33)
Yes – I will get a striking snake symbol (1)
Yes – I will get a wasp symbol (1)
Yes – I will get a collage of poz-centric symbols (21)
Yes – I will get a different symbol (6)
Q20. If a cure for HIV is found and becomes available, would you want it?
No – I want to be poz for the rest of my life (13)
Yes – I want the cure as soon as possible (61)
Yes – I want the cure in 1 to 2 years (35)
Yes – I want the cure in 2 to 3 years (18)
Yes – I want the cure in 3 to 4 years (13)
Yes – I want the cure in 4 to 5 years (13)
Yes – I want the cure in 5 to 10 years (28)
Yes – I want the cure in 10+ years (36)
Q21. When do you think a successful cure for HIV might be discovered?
Within 1 to 2 years (13)
Within 2 to 3 years (14)
Within 4 to 5 years (43)
Within 5 to 10 years (108)
Within 10 to 15 years (83)
Within 15 to 20 years (37)
Within 20 to 30 years (25)
Within 30 to 40 years (5)
Within 40 to 50 years (7)
Over 50 years (11)
Never (87)
Q22. Do you believe a poz brotherhood exists?
No – It does not exist anywhere (9)
Maybe – It depends on the location (106)
Yes – It exists in a small number of places (98)
Yes – It exists in a fair number of places (91)
Yes – It exists in a lot of places (56)
Yes – It exists everywhere (78)
Q23. At what age did you become poz?
Under 16 years of age (3)
16 to 17 years of age (2)
18 to 21 years of age (6)
22 to 25 years of age (20)
26 to 30 years of age (19)
31 to 35 years of age (14)
36 to 40 years of age (12)
41 to 45 years of age (6)
46 to 50 years of age (7)
51 to 55 years of age (2)
56 to 60 years of age (5)
61 to 65 years of age (1)
66 to 70 years of age (0)
Over 70 years of age (1)
Q24. How long have you been poz?
1 to 3 months (7)
3 to 6 months (3)
6 to 9 months (2)
9 to 12 months (2)
1 to 2 years (4)
3 to 4 years (8)
5 to 6 years (3)
7 to 8 years (7)
9 to 10 years (6)
11 to 15 years (18)
16 to 20 years (16)
21 to 25 years (11)
Over 25 years (10)
Q25. How did you become poz?
Intentionally – Through Bareback sex (50)
Intentionally – Through Blood slamming (9)
Intentionally – Drug use (2)
Intentionally – Through Sharing needles (1)
Unintentionally – Through Bareback sex (35)
Unintentionally – Through Sharing needles (1)
Unintentionally – There is a different reason (1)
Q26. How long did it take you to become poz?
Under 1 month (8)
1 to 3 months (8)
3 to 6 months (6)
6 to 9 months (6)
9 to 12 months (2)
1 to 2 years (13)
2 to 3 years (7)
3 to 4 years (4)
4 to 5 years (5)
5 to 10 years (4)
10 to 15 years (0)
15 to 20 years (1)
Over 20 years (0)
There is a different timeframe (4)
Q27. How long after your HIV diagnosis did you start taking antiretroviral medication?
Within 1 to 2 months (22)
Within 2 to 3 months (6)
Within 3 to 6 months (5)
Within 6 to 9 months (4)
Within 9 to 12 months (4)
Within 1 to 2 years (10)
Within 2 to 3 years (7)
Within 3 to 4 years (5)
Within 4 to 5 years (2)
Within 5 to 10 years (7)
I have never started meds (23)
There is a different timeframe (2)
Q28. If you have previously stopped taking your meds to infect someone, how long were you off your meds?
Under 1 month (8)
1 to 2 months (6)
2 to 3 months (5)
3 to 6 months (4)
6 to 9 months (4)
9 to 12 months (3)
1 to 2 years (2)
2 to 3 years (4)
3 to 4 years (3)
4 to 5 years (0)
More than 5 years (10)
There is a different length of time (3)
Q29. Has anyone ever asked you to infect them with HIV?
No – I have never been asked this before (7)
No – But I have had people curious about it (1)
No – But I do think people have wanted me to (4)
Yes – They talked to me about it, but didn’t follow through (30)
Yes – They asked me and I did follow through with it (54)
Q30. If you are or have been poz detectable, have you ever stealth fucked anyone?
No – I would never infect someone who doesn’t want to be infected (32)
Yes – I misled someone by avoiding the question when I was asked (26)
Yes – I misled someone by having the wrong HIV status on my profile (17)
Yes – I misled someone by saying I was negative (19)
Yes – I misled someone by saying I was undetectable (14)
Yes – I misled someone by saying I didn’t know my status (11)
Yes – I misled someone by damaging a condom so it broke (8)
Yes – I misled someone by removing a condom during sex (9)
Yes – I said whatever I needed to say based on the situation (30)
Yes – There is a different reason (9)
Q31. Based on your personal experience, would you recommend becoming poz to others?
No – I would definitely not recommend it (9)
Maybe – It depends on the person (45)
Possibly – I think most people would like it (10)
Yes – I would recommend it for sure (35)
Q32. If you became poz on purpose, do you have any regrets?
No – I am happy with my decision to convert (74)
Yes – I am now experiencing financial issues (1)
Yes – I am now experiencing health issues (0)
Yes – I am now experiencing medical issues (0)
Yes – I am now experiencing social issues (1)
Yes – I am now experiencing a combination of issues (2)
Yes – I am now experiencing other issues (1)
Q33. If you did not intend to become poz, but were infected unintentionally through barebacking for example, have you found ways to accept or even embrace being poz and is there anything you would like to share that may have helped you achieve this?
It’s just something that unlocked inside me, and It helped me accept things as they were rather than wallow in shame or self pity. Embracing my poz status allowed me to be much more free with my sexuality and to explore a new, and extremely hot fetish. Finding others who are into the same thing, makes it even hotter.
I’m out and proud of my status.
I looked at myself in mirror in clinic loo after being told I was poz and was sat in the waiting room for HIV positive men i wanked off now I was one of the filthy sleazy poz men and found I was horny and left my cum in the sink and accept it was going to happen because I was a whore unable to resist raw fuck and loaded up with multiple loads every night and then I was relaxed knowing that the doctor was a poz pig and congrats on my new poz status as I was fucked to see him wanking off seeing guys breed me knowing that I was neg and told me before I will get it in the next year before prep and knew I would be a poz pig and his patient to see and eventually get to swap our cum load in the appointment to see if I have any other strain of hiv yet and how high vl is going to breed with him soon as he is into poz conversion breeding parties and breed with the new pig in the toilet and caught him in a unlock cubicle cumming in a new slut to be offered to me knowing that I will probably poz seed his next patient and I wasn’t able to be man enough to fuck but now ready to breed my load into a hole knowing that I will poz seed my strain and be verbal filthy as I cum and rough as a result of breeding a new slut.
It was hard to deal. Was angry and fucked guys cause I didn’t care. I also let guys fuck me raw.
Having sex with other hiv positive men, seeking and finding communities like breeding zone and curious chaser. porn. neg4poz porn. embracing the fantasy was a way for me to overcome my shame about being hiv positive.
I was angry at first but then loved that I had something living inside me. Something I’m in control of for the most part. But if I wanted to let it take over it could. It gave me comfort I was in control.
Don’t get me wrong, it was unintentional, but would have been intentional had he told me beforehand. It was my partner. He was afraid to tell me, and I was constantly taking his loads. It was going to come up. But he was afraid I would leave him. When it did come up, I was relieved, and the whole time thinking, you could have said something, I probably would’ve taken it even more at least to get it out of the way.
I chased and loved it.
Convinced myself.
Yes, but it has taken me years to come to accept the results. I became poz in late 1983 due to a blood transfusion while in the military. Since I was given a death sentence— I decided to share it stealthily. I assumed I’d be dead before 1990 arrived. I watched others suffer & die; 3 men who may have succumbed to my strain; and I kept on living.
Education, educATION, EDUCATION.
I intentionally became poz.
Proud to be poz.
When I became poz I was terrified but the medications were always getting better all the time. I came to terms with my status by using chat rooms and meeting up with other poz guys, sharing stories. It has always been nice to find other poz guys to spend time with and be intimate with. Nothing I can do to change my status, might as well embrace the sex positivity of the community.
When I became poz I was terrified but the medications were always getting better all the time. I came to terms with my status by using chat rooms and meeting up with other poz guys, sharing stories. It has always been nice to find other poz guys to spend time with and be intimate with. Nothing I can do to change my status, might as well embrace the sex positivity of the community.
Yes, I’ve found ways to accept it by spreading it to any raw dog man I have sex with. PreP was announced 6 months after I found out I was poz. For me to accept it, is that I treat everyone who fucks raw as poz and if they aren’t and don’t want to be poz, then its there duty to get PreP and PeP.
I’ve always been heavily addicted to poz porn, essentially since I started masturbating around 12 years old. My husband and I fuck around with other guys every now and then and I always convince him to let me fuck raw. He doesn’t know I just wanted every chance I got to get the bug.
I’ve always had a poz fetish, so that made it easier for me to accept it. Also to me, it is just like any other chronic illness. Thinking about it that way really gives you a different perspective, and it helps you accept it.
I understood the risk of barebacking and was willing to accept those risk. The last year or so of being testing negative, I had friends in different parts of the country who were testing positive. I knew and accepted my actions.
In hindsight, it was going to happen anyway, I thought I was invulnerable, it doesn’t happen in a place where I lived. Once I became poz, I found, almost unintentionally that there were a lot more guys who were poz or were poz-friendly (men who will have sex with men who are poz and not worry about it) and I worked it out from there.
Q34. Thinking back to the beginning when bug chasing first emerged in your mind, what were your first thoughts about bug chasing and how did you initially react to having an interest in becoming HIV-positive?
A bit shocked then getting horny about it.
I was scared about being so turned by it, I didn’t understand why it made me so horny and I felt ashamed by it.
Intrigue and curiosity. I was initially embarrassed that I would consider getting infected with HIV.
I thought I was alone for wanting a deadly disease. But I was still wanting it.
It turned me on at first thought.
First off all, my English is not Soo good. My first language is Brazilian Portuguese. Sorry for anything that I may write incorrectly.
I was 17, saw a pozzing video and masturbated to it. I remember that I’ve got a feeling of shame, but was my best cumshot ever. I’ve never had such pleasure feeling to some idea (the idea of chasing HIV). But I didn’t stop to see this type of porn. I’ve keep going and liked more and more.
I was confused at first, but after one or two months I accepted that this was a fantasy and a fetish.
Until today, I’m 19y, almost 20y, I still love poz vídeos.
At the moment I take prep on demand. But as soon as I start to have my career and buy myself a home, I will quit PreP and start to chase HIV. I don’t want to be HIV+ now because my family would probably discover one time or another, and I don’t want that. I want to be free of the opinion of others, and be happy and proud of being HIV+ when I become a member of the brotherhood.
Initially I was fearful of HIV and had the thought that if I had it I wouldn’t have to worry. I also felt that my interactions with poz guys were hotter and felt I’d have that hot sex too if I had HIV.
I started to feel excited about the idea of becoming positive, the idea turned me on and gave me stronger orgasms, but it made me feel ashamed and dirty.
I was excited and panicked as I found out that I have an interest in becoming HIV-positive.
Was initially scared. But my husband is poz, and it’s something we want to share together.
It felt taboo and sinful and I felt guilty about it but eventually that guilt wore off over time.
It just felt interesting and made me horny.
It was from a random story I found and soon, went down the rabbit hole where instead of becoming more disgusted, it turned me on even more.
I grew up assuming I would eventually be poz. After never getting it, now at 50 years old I need to have HIV.
At first I was disgusted with myself but the more poz porn I watched and the more guys I talked to about it I realized I wasn’t alone and there is a community out there.
I felt ashamed and confused.
Could not believe anyone would want to be infected.
When I first saw it on tumblr I tried to quickly skim past, but it left an imprint in my head. At first I tried telling myself it’s just to educate yourself so you don’t get into that situation and you can always use condoms. But as I started having sex bareback was all I wanted and the bug chasing risk just made sex so much more appealing.
Confused and turned on, then scared.
Just felt like something I needed to experience. Gets me very excited to think about going poz, and also to spread it once I am.
I thought it was hot for some reason. Maybe the bonding and carrying another man’s DNA for life. It made me horny as hell. I guess it began really working on me after first seeing porn star Kyros Christian dumping his poz twink load in his boyfriend. I so wanted what he had.
Honestly questioned “what’s wrong with me?” Was turned on at the thought of it until a shot a load. Now it’s just part of me, and chasing is part of my life.
I was shocked that I was thinking this way. Now it arouses me – very much.
At first, I didn’t care if I got infected. Then I wanted it. It got horny to think about seroconverting.
I thought about how liberating and freeing it would be because I am a cumdump and wanted to get that out of the way. But, the initial known HIV+ encounter was a lot of anxiety.
Excited, changing someone’s life forever.
It felt pretty fucked up, but it drew me in. I liked the brotherhood aspect of it.
Bug chasing scared but also turned me on.
It scared me, but over time it started to arouse me, getting horny thinking about it.
Anxious and excited.
Shocked but aroused as hell.
I fell in love with a HIV / AIDS gay man and I didn’t care if I got infected because he was my 1st love and he showed me incredible sex , which made me confident about being gay
Excited.
I wasn’t at all interested and it was through lots of bb fucking I started to get aroused more when a guy talked to me about it, then I started to look for poz men and poz parties. Now I am addicted.
Feel horny.
I knew most guys who bb was poz and found being 25 and twink in a club of poz men older than 30 and very manly type to want to breed me their poz cum if I let them bb me and eventually they did and I would be horny as fuck to unable to resist the next cock to slip into the cum sloppy hole that I was getting fucked to know that I was interested in knowing if there were poz fuck conversions like TIMPorn viral loads and found it was a planned night when I was fucked by leather poz men who were watching a young me becoming more a slutty whore to know that I was ready for it to be gang banged by the men that knew I was going to be bred poz and some toxic men turned up to breed me their load while I was hearing them verbally breed me poz word but unsure if I was imagining them saying the filthy poz verbal as I was getting hammered and taking cock after cock and loaded up with my mind saying that I was going to be poz and found myself wanting it and then I let go of the thought of being poz and known as a slut being poz and fucked bb. But found it was what I was looking for since I got raw fucked in the sex club taking a raw load and being pinned down to be loaded with a real cum load in my ass by a random man pig and bred raw every week after knowing that I kind of found it hot knowing that only poz men bb before prep and I liked the fact that I was last of the bb raw holes to take it with risk raw poz conversion to be gangbbang and poz after the gang of poz men bred one of the last real breed of pigs and pozzed for my slutty fucks to be positive and proud to show it in the porn industry.
I realized that it was a fact of life among my gay brothers existing between fetish and fantasy.
I was being fucked by a guy when he told me as he came in me BB he was poz. I went back 3 times before he later said he was UD but it got me thinking.
It was always a turn on but I didn’t think I’d ever become a poz chaser but now I am. I have been with a poz detectable guy and loved it.
Set me free. This is the natural progression.
Shocked.
It makes me hard every time. I want to video that moment so I can relive it every day.
I always have been promiscuous and adventurous in my sexual behavior. By the time I graduated high school, I knew vanilla bored me. I only used a rubber three times before I graduated high school.. By 17-18 I was enthralled with HIV. By 19-20 I knew I wanted to chase. And by 21 I made the decision.
I was 22 when I set up my own conversion party. After deciding I wanted to bond with my gifters – as opposed to doing it anonymously – I picked the three buddies I wanted to infected we. We set up a party weekend, end of March 1999. On May 5, 1999, I converted.
Today, I am totally versatile. 50-50. I have a big dick and love to fuck and infect. And I have a hungry hole looking to get stuffed and loaded with more seed.
Started watching porn I had a crush on a porn star Jessy Karson.
Started reading about hiv and started to get sexually aroused. The more I read about chasing hiv the more aroused I became.
Made me excited.
How could anyone possibly want to do this? However, this is interesting, maybe I could find myself turned on by the idea of it if nothing else.
Was disturbed. After several years it actually started turning me on. Wanted to share my seed and pass it like my DNA.
Fear, then arousal and desire.
It horrified me until I saw how muck fun getting rawdogged, so i might as well get stung.
Made me horny.
I thought it was crazy and didn’t realize I was already a bugchasing little cumdumpster.
It excited me.
Hoping to take a verbal pozzing at a sauna or pnp party anon, then openly find others w/ similar lifestyles and interests to expand the sphere of chasing/giving. met many hiv+ partners, but through interaction and questioning, was hoping to see their perspectives on the subject.
Negatively
I had a friend who was chasing. I thought he was crazy-why would you do that? He told me that poz sex was really exciting. As I thought more about it, even though I was aware of the danger it seemed more right and I wanted it for myself.
Very confused. Not sure why this was so exciting to me and why I got so hard thinking about it. I thought I was very strange, and probably alone in this fetish until i found your website with the fantasy stories.
I felt excited and extra horny a bit like gambling in a way. Will you win and get infected or lose by taking poz cum and not being converted.
I didn’t care I just wanted men’s cum in my ass.
I thought it was erotic from a young age. I didn’t know why I was having those thoughts. But they grew & grew & festered into this undying need to be positive. So I just let it happen when it did. & I was relieved when I finally became positive.
Poz men seemed more sexy and free. The sex seemed hotter to me.
I was confused as to why I was so fascinated with poz guys.
When I first learned about HIV while in middle school. I knew I wanted it. No matter what it did to me.
I wanked myself stupid at the thought of letting Poz pigs breed me over and over, and once I was legal I was out there taking every load going!
Feeling the dick of death in my ass must be the best feeling of following the law of Nature.
I knew I was gonna get hiv cause I like unprotected risky sex. So I went out and had fun getting it.
Turned me on as a teenager thinking about old guys who were poz breeding my underage ass.
Just to get it over with on my terms.
My first thoughts were that it was crazy and I couldn’t believe I was even thinking about it. I felt insanely guilty about it and as I was really just kind of exploring my interest in gay sex to have bug chasing be tied to that at the start probably messed with my head more than anything.
I wanted to do something very taboo and becoming HIV-positive definitely checked that box. My initial reaction was just to get very horny at the thought of it.
Got rock hard watching a pozzing vid.
I didn’t really know it was a thing until after I became poz and encountered chasers. I thought it was hot, same as I do now, as long as they’re being sincere about it.
I was always a Pig and didn’t care and refused to wear condoms.
I stopped using condoms all together, in my mid 20s and with no PREP, I had always preferred bareback sex so I made a conscious decision to take the risk, which excited me more when I took drugs.
I was attracted to HIV and wanted to be poz before I even knew chasing was a thing. I was 14 and in my health class in school and a poz guy came in to talk about HIV. I was hard and precumming the whole damn time and all I wanted to was to let him fuck me.
It gave me a feeling of peace when thinking about it.
Scared when I discovered it then warmed up a bit. Slept with some undetectable guys then some full poz guys. The feeling of the risk turns me on more than anything.
It made me horny af.
It’s always turned me on but in the past I kept it a fantasy but it was always there and I was so happy when I finally stopped worrying and just started being a 100% raw fag cunt.
I was fascinated and wanted to become a member of the HIV+ community.
I was expecting to get infected eventually.
N/A as I seroconverted before much information was even available. When first informed, it was through a rather crude testing protocol and in my records it is labeled as HTLV-III. Times have changed.
My big dicked furry handsome poz bear BF told me in 2012 he wanted to poz my hole and I was so in love with him and so turned on by it that I gave him my ass to breed many times. He was on meds, all his attempts failed. I wanted him to poz me and nobody else.
Sexual arousal.
I was surprised. I wondered whether I had this feeling that I would be happier if Poz.
In the beginning I stumbled upon bug chasing while watching bareback/breeding porn and it shifting into poz porn and gift giving. My first reaction was this is crazy and kinda made me feel uneasy or maybe sick in a way, but I was turned on the whole time which really made me think about why I was turned on. Then I started to imagine getting fucked by a poz guy and thought about everything that would come with it and it kinda just stuck inside my mind and kept me coming back to that kind of porn.
Was fantasy at the time. Role play subject. It was a turn on, made me horny. Slamming meth with other barebacking role players was intriguing and fun. We would say anything to make the others get hornier and we ate off of each other’s dirty talk and wild fantasies.
Just do it.
I was ashamed and confused as to why I would have these thoughts and why it would turn me on. I tried to suppress the feelings as much as I could.
A bit shocked to be honest. But the thought grew on me and made me horny.
Ashamed and disgusted. Watching poz porn for the first time made me feel vulnerable, and I thought that people who actively participated in it were sick in the mind.
I felt a rush of excitement when thinking about being part of an activity that was so taboo and that embraced something we’ve been taught to avoid.
Always thought the odds were I’d get pozzed eventually, so the idea of letting it happen intentionally was quite erotic.
Honestly the first time discussing intentionally getting pozzed really turned me on. I seriously might have actually gone thru with the scenario, but things never made it beyond discussing the play of events. I didn’t really actually chase the fantasy of getting pozzed. I became poz a few years later either from someone who didn’t know or knew and didn’t care, or by unknowingly using a used needle.
I think the thought of getting “pregnant”, completely submitting to a man, becoming owned and part of him via shared DNA were drivers of my interest in and fantasies about chasing.
I have always enjoyed unsafe sex with poz men, even before bug chasing.
It was from a dating site and a guy I checked out. I discovered he was Poz HVL…so risky, but it turned me on.
I was quite disturbed by this strange arousal.
I thought it was a hot kink and it drew me in.
Why the fuck do I feel this way!?
I was always scared person at first but then I started to read about the story were turning me on. then when I did it with someone who had hiv and didn’t tell me turned me on even more. I would love to get it from my bf/husband or my fuck buddy. have a fuck buddy and we have sex a lot and love it….he is a little scared to sleep with me bare but I got him to get over it.
I stopped pretending and stopped serosorting and gave myself over completely to bug chasing and went public with it.
Got fucked by a stranger in the bushes, he stealthed and I had a huge load up my ass leaking out in the car. I had to stop and jerk off to it and it made me horny ever since.
My first experience was when I was hooking up with a Poz guy, he couldn’t stay hard in a rubber. So I told him I needed him raw. I didn’t care about his virus, I just needed my hole used. It turned me on to take his Poz cock raw.
Terrified of it but the fear became a kink.
Felt wrong but loved it.
Ashamed.
I thought it was messed up. Gross. Then I started seeing more videos of it. And the risk and pleasure they get made me horny. Then knowing that Poz top is now impregnating the sub with his Poz seed made me crazy. Then I slammed and it was like a demon entered my brain craving toxic seed.
It’s hot.
Being trans only way I can become pregnant.
I’d made me hornier than I’ve ever been and my cock grew the largest it had.
My initial thoughts centred around it being extremely taboo, which is why I find it to be a turn on. I’m aroused by dirty, disgusting, perverted things. I am ashamed, however, I’m afraid that if I seek out getting pozzed that it will carry physical, mental, and emotional impacts on my life that I will regret. I know I answered that I am aroused by the destructive aspect of being pozzed, but at the same time I am scared of those consequences.
I thought it was something that I wanted to become. Because I like taking risks.
My first thoughts about bugchasing was a combination of a level of horniness I had never experienced before, and absolute disgust in myself.
I thought it was erotically hot, and primal sexuality to experience pleasure and connection without bounds.
I found it incredibly hot and got instantly rock hard. I did not understand why I found it hot, I was confused and thought I was fucked in the head for that and beat myself up over it. Then found others online and realized there are a lot of guys out there who think the same way.
Ashamed initially but later excited.
Yes, I had a guy make me beg for his poz load.
When I first found out through porn that there were a group of people that were proud of getting the virus and actively chasing it I was confused and slightly disgusted. I closed out of the video and immediately started looking for something else. But my mind couldn’t shake the image of the guy with the biohazard tatt having his way with the bottom lol. So I ended up giving in and looking it up, scrolling through videos like that all night.
Fearful of the consequences of committing to converting. The life long treatment.
Scared and excited, but it was an attraction I could fight. It always kept coming back stronger and stronger.
Back in 2010, I chatted online with a local poz guy, said he wanted to fuck me – safe only because he was HIV+ – later on I realised that I wanted him to fuck me bareback – I had never done bare before. But it thrilled me to think he might. He wasn’t up for it, and we didn’t meet up. But I surprised myself with this realisation.
Two years later, I had my first bareback sex with a stranger in London, and afterwards all I could think was – I might be HIV+ now – and it thrilled me. It still does thrill me, very much, but I also waver, from leaning into it – fuck yes I want to be poz now – to realising how crazy it is to want this.
I was and still am sooo turned on by it. I cum just thinking about it.
I started cruising for sex at a very young age. There were a number of guys I played with on a very frequent basis. Even knowing their status, I have never and will never use condoms.
My only regret is wishing I had been versatile. I have always been a top, except for a few times, one being when I was fucked by two very obviously poz guys, in a sling, in a bath house.
I know many poz men. Each told me how freeing and sexual being poz was for them…hot bareback sex, parties, etc. that was my initial interest in becoming poz.
I wanted to have it in me.
It turned me on not knowing who’s been fucking raw in the bottom before me.
I was shocked at first but I wanted to be more part of the culture of men who had it and were unafraid of living a full authentic life through completely enjoying gay sex.
I felt naughty at first, still don’t know how to truly feel, but I am excited and want to just get it over with.
I had been exposed so many times it became a challenge to catch it.
Honestly, it was nerve wracking to even look into it. But as I thought about the idea of being pumped full of HIV enhanced batter got me really aroused and I have no idea why.
My blood started racing. I felt like my body had been surged with arousal hormones. I was so horny and wanted it so bad. It excited me so much! I spent pretty much an entire day trying to message all the people who had it on their profile on BBRT. So disheartened that there’s so few people nearby and never got to explore it with them. Some were not interested it seems, and others were far enough that neither of us could travel to the other.
It was disturbing, and still is, as I don’t really understand, why the idea of being infected with a virus without any cure available, arouses me, but it does.
With mixed emotions of erotic arousal and disgust.
I was having a great session with a new grinder hook up he was really hot. Covered in tats and piercings he said watch video. Then tell me what do you think of it? Within the four minute length of the video I blew x2. I still do whenever I watch the video. It red guy.
Felt ashamed and excited at the same time.
I got totally fascinated by the idea of chasing as a sub.
I was 17 yrs old and my first boyfriend had told me he was hiv positive and thought that I could possibly get it from him, sparked my curiosity and excitement which eventually led me to finding poz guys extremely sexy and I found myself becoming very attracted to them. I was excited and horny non stop thinking about it.
Thought it was weird, then became curious, now it excites me.
Was surprised, but after learning and seeing more I developed an appreciation.
I didn’t understand why I was aroused by it or why something life threatening made me feel so good.
Why would someone want to be poz?
I felt it was crazy – why would someone do that? why be self-destructive?
Surprised but curious.
Jekell & Hyde. I knew it was dangerous and wrong but couldn’t stop myself.
Seeing his cum in porn.
Nervous, dangerous, yet sexy, horny, a manageable illness nowadays.
Initially I was shocked, hated it actually. However I just could not stop the thoughts and it turned me on massively. It took hold of my brain and never left and got more powerful over time. I have random thoughts throughout the day about HIV and I get an erection every time without fail.
That the poz men who I was seeing in videos had “Come out” to the world and accepted their sexuality with pride.
I was being fucked bareback and the fucker said “take my fucking poz load” while cumming inside and i immediately came with him. Still neg today but that feeling of being pozzed made me feel alive.
I began thinking about it seriously when I met my current HIV negative polyamorous partner. My partner, Partick, is married to his HIV positive husband, Paul. I am married to my HIV positive husband, Eric. Patrick and I are both HIV negative. We began discussing the idea of “tox-bonding” as a way to affirm our commitment to one another. Patrick is actively seeking to acquire HIV so that he, in turn, can infect me. So, in reality, Patrick is the more active chaser. While I am a chaser, I only want to be infected by him.
Shock I felt that way.
I first found the subculture to be quite kinky and exciting, but hardly my thing because it was too risky. I wasn’t particularly surprised with the interest to the best of my memory. Whatever I think, that’s how my mind works.
It started before prep. I knew I was not going to use condoms for sex so I figured conversion was inevitable. I wanted to control that process and pick the person to do it. I did not convert, and prep came around… I was on it for a few years and realized nothing satisfied me like taking poz loads, so I stopped prep and let go of any desire to control the conversion. I left it up to fate. If someone knocked me up, so be it. (But I also actively chased because it was such a turn on).
I was grossed out that I masturbate to the idea of infection.
That it like getting pregnant, or being turned into a werewolf (not a therewolf) Woof.
My first thought was shame. How could I think of something like Bug Chasing? Would it ruin my life?
As the thoughts and interest increased, I started searching the internet for information, bug chasing porn, stealthing porn and converting porn.
I never gave it any regard. I didn’t care if I got it or not. Believe it or not, I was still shocked when I tested poz!
This is quite dangerous, but also really arouses me sexually.
Shorty after I started to BB I THOUGHT I had the fuck flu but didn’t. It was both scary yet exciting at the same time. I wasn’t chasing at the time but made the decision to with the provision I knew who infected me.
Just having the risk, I always bareback, I was strictly a btm starting when I was 12, the risk factor was always a turn on.
I thought it would be sexy knowing that I’m so sex positive that I got knocked up.
I feel very horny and knew it was as a community I want to be in. I started going to saunas and taking raw loads and it gave me a crazy head rush.
Hot and horny.
Sexual arousal, curiosity. Sexual desire, finally confident enough to take the risk.
I was at a private sex party. One of the guys invited was a former porn star who was poz. We talked and played a bit and I really wanted him to fuck me and do it bare. From there, I found conversion stories, vids, chat on apps, & porn.
It was confusing, why would I want to fuck an HIV poz guy when most people were dying from it at the time. I’m comfortable with the idea that I will become infected.
It seemed taboo, risky and amazingly exciting! I cannot explain it but it turns me on to a huge degree.
Horny.
I thought that bug chasing was extremely taboo and never thought I’d be into that. My interest started from the community that comes across when poz men are together.
THIS IS A TOTALLY TRUE STORY: 2007 – an old BF came over. I have been into him since the 1980s when we were first set up on a date. He was poz back then, at age 26, having tested positive at age 23 in 1985. I tested negative then and continue to test negative until this day. We sort of dated for a little while when we were in our 20s (we are in our 60s now).= I hadn’t seen him in a number of years and I was so happy to see him at my door that night back in 2007. I have always always always been deeply attracted to him, and this something he was very well aware of. Well, one thing lead to another and we ended up making out on my bed. He was (and still is) a handsome top fucker-bear with a hard round furry ball belly and a big fat hairy poz cock (which I know has been in 1000s of raw assholes because he has been gifting for decades … it his thing). Anyway, we were making out on my bed and one thing lead to another. Soon we were naked, doing poppers, and sucking dick when he suddenly put me on my belly, ate my ass and slipped his raw dick into my fuckhole. I had never ever ever in my life le t a poz guy put his raw dick in my ass until that moment, and then he said the magic words … “I wanna fucking poz you up, I wanna fucking pozz your ass”. I was crazy HOT and turned on but despite the heat of the moment I pushed his raw dick out of my asshole though I really, at that animal level wanted him to continue breeding me. He came down my throat instead knowing that I was a pig, but a pig with limits and taking loads up my ass was one of them back then. Anyway, I didn’t see him again until 2012 and we dated that entire year. Again, while making love he would say that he wanted to poz me up and that he would do it if I let him because he loved me. Well that was that … shockingly, I was soon giving him my raw asshole and was begging him to give me his toxic load and to poz me up. He got me to the point where I wanted his bug from his cock inside my fuckhole. We would party all weekend, every weekend and we would make hot nasty pig love all centered around pozzing me with his big dick. About 9 months into 2012 he had come up my ass at least 100 times and I was still testing negative so he hired a body builder porn star who is known as a gifter in small circles to come over and spend the weekend with us with the sole intention of getting me bugged up. I wont give you his name but he is a body builder and has a huge poz cock. He and my BF used caverjack in their cocks so they were as hard as fucking rocks. My BF breed me first. I pushed his cum out a bit and spread it on my asshole so the porn star could use some of it as lube. The porn star literally slammed his huge fatwide dick into my asshole and I yelped in pain but couldn’t pull away because he was so big and had pinned me down for the breeding. He continued to literally slam his cock into my asshole and I asked him to stop. I got up and went to the bathroom and wiped myself with tissues. My ass hurt so bad and then as I looked down at the toilet tissue I saw it had blood on it. It was blood from my ass. His dick was so fat and wide that the force of his initial thrust cause me to bleed. I went back to the bed room and told the two of them that I was bleeding. We took a break and then partied some more and while I was sore, each one would take turned holding poppers under my nose while the other would breed me. This went on for a few days. One month later I still tested negative. So, my BF and I decided that in order to get me pozzed up, we would need to go out and get my ass loaded anonymously so we went to the book store. We entered a booth, he lubed up my hole and directed it towards the glory hole where any man could fuck my ass and cum in it if he wanted. I was doing this for him. He loved what I was doing for him and while I was getting anonymously breed by dudes thru the glory hole I would be bent forward and while in that position in the booth, he would hold me in his arms. He held me up, kissed me, told me I was doing the right thing all while feeding me poppers and smoking a bit. Once I was breed a few times in one booth my BF would leave, then later come back and wipe my ass telling me to hold in all the cum I had in my asshole. He would tell me to follow him and so I would … right into a new booth with a glory hole. In each booth the raw assfucking continued and I got many anonymous loads pumped into me. That was the last time I ever had sex that unsafe. Weirdly, I continue to test negative as of August 2024. I am now on PrEP, am barebacking, and taking anonymous loads from strangers in bookstores, dark alleys and the baths but now I do so rested assured that I wont get HIV … and I haven’t gotten it.
I got really horny, and when i masturbated, I had the most intense orgasm.
I was in high school and had acquaintances that had hiv bring in theater. I was young and would visit the dance theater in Atlanta . I would hook up with the dancers, this was interesting to me.
I think that I was surprised by how horny and turned in I was by watching someone get pozzed in a porn. It kinda flipped the script from something that is taboo to something that can be pleasurable.
Hot.
Turned on.
At first it was scary, but later it felt liberating and self-destructive.
I started having thoughts on getting pozzed when I started meth watching bareback sex videos and when I began doing meth.
My bug chasing fantasies/fetish only occurred and still only occurs when I was recreational drugs. I have an increased desire to become depraved and humiliate myself by seeking men who I believe are low quality and therefore “dirty” to sleep with and thus myself become “dirty.”
First thoughts were intriguing about catching these bugs and spreading them along. Look, I believe now in spreading my strains, bugs to any DL, gay dude, faggot, cumdump, bi, or whatever willingly or not. I already have the worst STI technically getting more ain’t going to affect me that much!
Excited and turned on.
I was always thinking of it as a fantasy. But then I realized I wanted it. It took over my mind. All I thought about was how I could get pozzed as soon as possible.
I just watched a Poz porn and I’ve wanted ever since.
I was aroused and excited. Somewhat shameful because there’s people who suffer and people who died in the past from it. But overall thrilling thoughts and feelings.
When I first realized it aroused me, I was disgusted with myself. The fetish did grow stronger over time but I never gave in. But I basically hated this part about myself.
From what I can remember, part of it was the thrill of taking a detectable load just to have that experience. I knew I might or might not become infected after one fuck. I was also worried about people finding out and judging me harshly.
I had protected sex with a Poz guy and his husband, I was their 3rd for a few months. Always protected and I became increasingly open to the idea.
Shocked. It was more an arousal of deviance.
Found breedingzone.com and reading the stories about being converted made me very aroused and excited, and started wanting to be the person in those stories to become converted. still visit the site often and look for new stories I wish I was in.
Thinking about it would get me hard. Now I can only think about becoming poz to cum.
That if I wanted to take black cock, I would have to take it as offered, that safe sex wasn’t yes really an option.
I was excited.
I was shocked but extremely turned on about the next level risky excitement.
It was an intense overwhelming feeling – I was in health class and as the lessons continued I became more and more enthralled – soon it was all consuming and is my entire purpose/reason I have sex.
I was a little scared that my mind would come up with these thoughts, but the more I looked into it, the more it seemed like an exciting and even potentially safe idea. The risk always appealed to me.
The taboo of it really excited me.
I was turned on by it to have a bond with someone a rest of my life.
When I first gained an interest in bug chasing it was about choice (and I am very pro choice generally), I could make a choice about whether I wanted to chase, whether I wanted to medically control the bug, or whether I wanted to pass it on.
I instantly became horny, and had the best orgasm when I masturbated to the thought.
When I first ran across this kink I was a mix of aroused and disgusted.
I wasn’t shocked. I felt because I am gay I am going to get it anyway. When I learned it could be an option I thought, it can make me complete.
I had been barebacking as a bottom from a young age but almost exclusively as the protege of an older gay man on our street with him and certain friends he chose. When he passed away and I moved from home, I met a man online who was poz and I just “WANTED” despite his HIV+ designation on gay.com (circa 1999). We connected and I knew I needed it.
At first I was freaked out and a bit disgusted, why the hell would anyone do that, and then something shifted, I remember someone saying he was poz and I found myself turned on.
I was nervous about barebacking used condoms for the longest time. After going condomless the first time, I knew it would be the last time. The best sex of my life. I was selective about who I had bareback sex with but over time I used the condom less.
I was exited and attracted.
I was scared at first but the idea of being pozzed and of stealthing others is so hot to me.
As noted in a previous reply above, I became aware of chasing before prep existed. I was undecided for 1-2years, but came to the realization that becoming poz was inevitable. I chose to chase and convert on my own terms. I would do it again, even if prep were available to me.
First thought was that it was crazy, but excited.
Ashamed to fetishize something that negatively effective so many.
Thoroughly aroused.
Yes clearly. My Master. I never really heard of chasing but met my Master and partner online during the covid mess. He is very very into it and He was really into me, long story short, He gave me my first strain and we’ve been together for 4 years now!
I was ashamed of myself.
It was confusing. I remember camping with a bunch of poz guys once and feeling like I was with ‘my people’. I wasn’t chasing at the time and wondered if I was fence jumping. It was an awkward feeling, but that was where the seed was planted in my mind.
I thought I was sick and crazy… went through self doubt and shame.
I was getting turned on by the thought of the guy pozzing me during sex. I was confused by why I felt that way.
I was amazed.
Bug chasing porn turns me on especially because I enjoy breeding. That hasn’t really changed over time.
At first I thought it was confusing why someone would deliberately want HIV, but after meeting a few very attractive men who successfully chased and converted, and talking about it, it gradually became the strongest turn on ever for..more than anything else.
Q35. Do you think your interest in bug chasing was influenced by something in particular, such as watching bareback porn, taking recreational drugs or having sex at a young age?
Sex at a very young age.
Yes, was influenced by bareback poz porn.
Watching bareback porn I stumbled on bug chasing and poz porn in time, but a guy I hooked up with regularly before COVID introduced me to the thought of it and how would love me to chase.
I have always preferred bareback sex and getting bored, so the shift in my view of bug chasing was a simple and easy one.
Yeah watching hung bareback and poz porn turned me on.
I think maybe bareback porn. I’ve had sex the first time when I was 17y, and lost it to a 33y guy who fucked me bareback. He didn’t ask for condom, status, prep or anything. I wanted to be fucked bareback so for me it was a full pleasure. We fucked more 2 times, then never talked again.
All the sex I’ve had after that was bareback. Being top or bottom, was aways bareback. For me, since 16y, condom never had any logic in gay sex. Should be always raw.
I don’t know why, but I’ve started to be scared of my status only when I’ve turned 19y. I’ve been fucking and getting fucked bareback for 2 years without prep. I’ve got tested 3 times since then and 3 times negative.
I’ve say that in the previous question, that I don’t want to became poz because I live with my family and don’t want to be ashamed by them. But I still want someday to chase and become poz.
Mostly watching bareback videos, it turned me on when I saw guys getting bred and the cum getting out slowly of the ass, the very instant when the top finishes breeding the hungry bottom, while I imagine that it’s me the one taking the loads.
My interest in bug chasing was influenced by a sexy and cute toxic poz top and watching bareback porn.
All the above. But mainly porn and poz porn. Then meeting and marrying my poz husband.
At 16 my first boyfriend was super slutty and I was worried he’d infected me. It became a fantasy over time instead.
Porn and porn captions.
Simply watching bareback porn and having my self-discovery in acknowledging that I’m pansexual instead of being just straight.
Seeing pics of gays wasting bodies in the 1980s dying of AIDS. I found them extremely hot!
Watching bareback porn and joining Nasty Kink Pigs website.
It was originated in being jealous of the sexual freedom of the men when I was a young boy being able to bareback during their coming of age and youth before there was so much fear.
Turned down by someone I fell in love with because I was negative.
BBRTS changed my way of thinking.
Definitely bareback porn. The porn stimulates me wanting to catch HIV and other STIs.
Treasure Island Media played a big part. the men were so sexually free and unashamed and took all loads, no questions asked.
Something triggered in me when I let someone breed me for the first time. I was so scared to let that happen. Now I want it all.
I was depressed and wanted to die. Then it became a fetish to become poz.
Yes. Porn definitely influenced my decision to be a bug chaser. But, also so did wanting to be a cumdump without any fears.
Porn and drugs definitely help, and stop other’s resistance to you.
Probably was linked to my interest in extreme sex (fisting, felching, scat play, pig play, etc).
Reading stories about bug chasing and bareback sex without condoms.
Bareback porn definitely, then having bareback sex at bath houses and gay clubs.
Having bareback sex and wanting to stop worrying the possibility of becoming poz.
Definitely watching bareback porn and especially seeing blood slamming for the first time.
No more when I got older, bb sex is a big turn on for me. Being sexually abused at 6-8yrs by an older boy made me insecure about my sexuality.
It’s in my nature.
For me also a change in attitudes since prep, more bb fucking & maybe covid guys just want to live life to the fullest.
Definitely bareback porn and literature related.
Porn like TIMPORN viral loads and later slammed. Also pigs at the hoist is what I was bred by leather poz men and now poz pig leather man like them and wish dickwadd would have filmed me covert in the hoist sling but plan to shoot usa a gangbang poz scene to show how I was poz converted in a sex club sling and leather chaps are hot as fuck to be bred in and biohaz tat men wore them lots.
Mostly true along with my impulsive sexual behavior.
Always done BB since my first experience at 16.
No I’m just a bit of a kinkster.
Like so many others, Bugshare was my gateway.
I was stealthed at age 17 but didn’t convert.
Watching bareback porn.
I love the idea of being bred but always worried about taking something home to my Wife, so I’ve never done anything. Found pozzing on twitter, and it just added an element to breeding which made it hotter.
I love dirty sex and I love being a whore.
All of those influenced by decision to be a chaser, But most importantly, HIV sex gives me the biggest and hardest erection I can attain.
Definitely started watching porn on my first phone young and the best porn is bareback.
Watching bareback porn. Definitely. I spent hours masturbating about it.
Watching a documentary.
Bareback porn, lots of risky sex at younger ages without considering risk, finding online communities discussing it.
BB porn.
I was terrified at a young age, friends and family died of Aids when I was a child. However I remember my first sexual encounters being very different from when I first had unprotected sex and the change was mind melting.
Bareback porn and slamming. I took so many toxic loads and somehow stayed neg. Now I’m a No Loads Refused Cumslut.
Porn.
No, just a born cumdumpster.
Definitely influenced by gift giving/bug chasing fiction on breedingzone.com and watching pozzing videos.
Watching POZ porn.
Bareback porn, taking recreational drugs and anonymous sex preferably w/ older pozfucking males.
My interest in bug chasing did not begin until after i was poz, at first revenge/anger, then connection, also definitely appeals to my trickster nature, power in gifting, not having to worry about hiv anymore, the idea of other men being so attracted that it didn’t matter: extreme affirmation / validation of my desirability / attractiveness.
No.
Maybe watching bareback. 100% honest, I am “Straight” I have had one blow job from a guy in college, but that is the extent of my gay experience. It was from a stranger I met online, older guy, and I remember thinking as he was blowing me on my bed, I would love for him to just fuck me raw. That began my desires for bareback, and it has escalated from there.
No I heard of guys being chasers and thought that is what I need to be.
Yes Treasure Island Media porn made me discover it.
Yes all of the above. I’ve always loved bareback porn & breeding even from when I first started having sex with older men at 13. I started getting into pnp with older guys who only wanted to fuck me raw. & I liked it & let them. Then it got into poz talk. My first daddy with a biohazard tattoo fucked me. I loved the idea he had something else to give me. Something that would make me part of him forever. After that I sought out poz men. From 19 years old I was almost strictly only letting poz men fuck me.
Yep watching Dawson take loads and other TIM porn.
Recreational drugs have allowed my mind to open up more to the possibility of becoming poz. One guy who was a semi-regular fuck bud (and he’s the one that introduced me to Meth), said to me that he thought I should just go ahead and get pozzed. He thought it would be hot if I was. He introduced me to BreedingZone and that site has really opened up my mind that I don’t have to fear being poz. I can still have a long life with it. Even though I knew a guy (including my roommate) who were poz and undetectable, it was BZ that really opened me up to it.
I am not sure. I have always had bareback sex, and have never asked or cared if my current partner has HIV or STI. Sex is not fun or comfortable unless it is bareback with a complete stranger cumming inside my ass.
Bare porn, the feeling it was taboo and the view that you’d die from AIDS – I’m talking about the early 2000s when that ignorance was more widespread than today – those thoughts got me so boned!
I believe not.
Taking loads from guys with grey hair when I was 14.
Watching porn, reading poz stuff in forums, pozconvert.com helped a lot.
For me it was watching bareback porn and going into bareback chat rooms at a young age.
Being 18 at the moment, I’ve grown up with bareback porn being normal. That may have shaped my view of how sex should be, considering I started watching porn quite early, and started having sex a young age, mimicking my favorite porn scenes.
Porn yeah, drug use a little.
Probably all 3 things listed in the prompt. I started watching porn in 3rd grade. Had sex at 13. Starting using crystal at 22. Never have I ever used condoms. So yeah, it’s like chasing the sexual dragon.
I had an early experience with one poz guy who admitted he wasn’t on meds and he then proceeded to use a lot of poz verbal talk while he fucked me, even got me begging for his toxic cum. That really got me so turned on and was a real turning point where I actively sought out poz guys.
Nope. I’d never seen any porn at that point and I’ve never taken recreational drugs.
Yes. For sure. Porn helped me identify what urges and fantasies I was feeling.
I only have bareback sex. Discovering my freak side the poz fetish shined through.
I just discovered it in porn.
Lots of things. Those mentioned included.
Websites and bareback porn, testimonials of bug chasers and gift giver.
I wanted to be raped and impregnated by a man.
My old poz BF planted my desire to get pozzed up and it’s never gone away.
Possibly.
Yes.
I was very much into barebacking, and getting cum from other men was an important expectation when having sex.
Definitely influenced by my interest in bareback porn and breeding.
Bareback porn; barebacking with others; initially smoking meth; and then quickly getting into slamming meth.
Watching bareback porn and reading Pozzing stories.
No.
I don’t believe there was anything that influenced me. I have never used condoms and didn’t really care about being safe of finding out status in the moment. I just kind of accepted that it could happen.
Watching porn/twitter and getting to know poz people.
Bareback porn was absolutely the gateway, and then the pregnancy fantasy, then the idea of being a breeding ground for aids.
I was totally in love with someone who was poz. I thought that if I became poz he would love me more and we’d be together for ever. It didn’t work that way, after I became poz he ran.
Pozzing porn.
Having raw sex felt better, finding pozzing porn eventually definitely helped to define bug chasing in my mind.
I was fucking someone with a bio tat he convinced me to convert.
I don’t think so.
Definitely influenced by watching bareback porn and pozzing, breeding, stealthing porn…
All, sex with poz men was always better.
My influence was from reading gay men’s chats and comments.
Since I am still a virgin, it can only have been the porn part, of anything of these.
I was cruising bareback loads in the park before I knew about HIV. By then I already could have been poz and didn’t have a way to get tested easily.
It was influenced by this HOT POZ guy I met on Gay.com who told me stories about the guys he’d POZZED and it TURNED ME THE FUCK ON!!!
Guess when I was younger there was this hot poz guy I met on gay.com and well when I read the stories of it, I thought of him infecting me and was turned on that point.
No I had life experience.
Nah.
Porn and community forums online.
Yes porn and drugs and being my dad’s cum hole at 4 years old till I was 15.
Bareback porn and sites like BreedingZone, as well as seeing Poz guys who were enjoying the freedom of fucking without care.
It was definitely porn. I am addicted to porn. Big time. So much so that I spend so much casual time looking at porn with an almost uncontrollable urge to masturbate. One day when I was younger I discovered this kink on tumblr and the rest is history.
Yes it has.
I think what probably had the biggest influence on me in terms of bugchasing was my previous borderline irrational fear of contracting HIV. The fear itself being first instilled in me by an 8th grade health teacher who was purposely trying to make us very afraid so we would choose ‘abstinence’. But obviously the lesson didn’t work in the end, so take that Mrs. Palmer.
It is a combination of being used as a sexual object by others before I started elementary school, bareback porn, manhunt and plane tour hookups, AOL m4a chat rooms when I was a teen, and phone sex when I was a teen.
No. I had not even tried weed or any harder drugs till way after the fact, lost my virginity at 19 and I had never seen a gay porn with barebacking until I was 19. I first found out about bug chasing through fictional erotic stories on a couple of websites and was hard like a rock precumming as I read each story.
I think it I was influenced my talking with other Chasers and Gifters.
Bareback sex, prejudice against hiv, morality against bareback fucking.
I can’t exactly say: I lost my virginity when I was 14, did it a lot of drugs in my youth, and yes I watch a lot of bareback porn. In the 90s, when a lot of people were dying of HIV/AIDS I remember being so angry at the moral majority who said we all deserved it. The religious right. There is a part of me that wants to deliberately get HIV as a massive fuck you to those people. To make myself abject, queer-as-fuck, poz and proud.
Definitely part by having unprotected sex when I was 12 years old with friend.
I would say all three would have been contributing factors.
I do wish I would have found guys who could have introduced me to far more extreme, filthy scenes at a young age.
A combination of porn and having sex at a very young age.
Definitely drugs, also knowing poz men who openly promote poz sex and surrounding brotherhood/community.
Yes, I’ve been horny and sexually active from a young age.
I found stealthing porn hot and figured I’d get HIV eventually. Might as well chase it.
Bareback porn and gangbangs.
I started being interested in older men after puberty and wanted very much to enjoy men. This was the time AIDS was rampant but I was hungry to be with a sexy older man and be his pussy.
Bareback porn and the idea of taking loads makes me horny.
Mixture of many factors.
Bareback porn and artwork depicting POZ guys cumming into neg guys.
The best porn is the bug-chasing raunchy no limits ones. As second best, TIM Studios.
I think it’s influenced by loneliness, finding it hard to find sexual partners regularly, my sleep schedule being off, my mental health not being the greatest, caffeine intake, sissy porn, and bareback porn. The ignition though was definitely finding out it was a thing of BBRT.
It was an online conversation with a dominant guy, who told me he want’s me to get poz. The idea never left me again since then.
Bareback porn and advanced ARV’s certainly made it possible to think of catching the bug myself.
The porn collection of my former fuck buddy all pozzing and stealthing all got transferred to my collection. I was watching the porn wanting to be the object of s I’m as conversion for missing out on years of gay sex from my schools days and life in London… thing, then twitter groups And then as the movies are showing conversations are hard people are my friends. I want the same thing. It’s so hot.
Watching pop bareback porn and watching as the poz top breeds.
An ex partner introduced me to it. He was undetectable and loved roleplaying pozzing me.
Watching bareback porn and chatting to hiv poz people.
I believe having a hiv poz boyfriend as my first boyfriend experience romantically and sexual had sparked the desire along with bareback porn.
Watching bareback and breeding porn, and BDSM.
Certainly BB porn and drugs.
Treasure Island Media definitely made me see bareback sex as the ONLY way for two men to fuck. The rawness and real pleasure they show made me see want to experience it just like that.
Discovering releases like Viral Loads, Buggery and We Are Coming for You cemented it as a fetish I couldn’t get enough of and once I started smoking crystal meth I would let it take over me and id often tell guys I was poz, or ask them to poz me.
I have loved being a bareback bottom for 50 years.
Porn, and also reading about (and interacting with) people in the poz and chasing community – it became “normalised”
It was a bareback porn star that was openly chasing.
Didn’t lose my virginity until I was at university. (pre-internet time).
BB porn wasn’t readily available until about fifteen years ago, several years after my interest in bug-chasing began to formulate in my mind.
I’ve tried various drugs (once or twice) through my 20s, 30, & 40s but most didn’t work for me.
Tried Meths in 40s. It makes me more eager for sex, but not exclusive ‘pozzing up sex’.
Combination of drugs and community.
I have no real idea. I do remember being incredibly fascinated when I learned about it in high school when I was like 15-16, not turned on though. I forgot about it until I was 25 and found poz porn and photos of guys with biohazard tattoos. Then I found photos of “wasting” guys with lipodystrophy causing popping veins and it just pushed me over the edge. Now I feel incomplete without it, like it has to become part of me.
Mostly gay bars/sex clubs where sex was open and available. Walk in, get naked, and fuck.
Not taking drugs and pozzing porn is hot, but it started in my mind before i even started watching pozzing porn.
I don’t think it was influenced by watching bareback porn, taking recreational drugs or having sex at a young age.
Poz porn. Unprotected sex.
Poz accounts I follow on Twitter and bareback sex with random guys.
Treasure Island was some of the first porn I enjoyed watching. I think that had an impact. But I don’t recall how I became interested in TIM in the first place.
Bareback porn really helped.
Bare, drugs, written stories.
I had sex on a really young age, but I do not think my bug chasing desires were influenced by it. I do think bareback porn influenced my desires, but also the thought of not having to think about safe sex.
Rec drugs (Meth) certainly heightened the number of sexual encounters,
Definitely watching poz porn. I also find the poz tattoos to be very hot, but I believe those tattoos have to be earned. Crystal meth helps as it greatly enhances my dark or twisted desires.
Watching bb porn. Have never used recreational drugs other than occasionally pot. Sex is a drug in itself. I was in my 40s before gay sex so not young.
Yes watching bareback porn.
I started having bareback sex and watching porn when I was pretty young. It’s always been sexy to me.
I think getting fucking raw by an older guy I knew when I was 14 started my journey. Since then I’ve been trying to find the same rush and that’s what big chasing does for me.
Culmination of things.
Not sure here. I did start having sex at 8yrs old, my uncle taught me how exciting naked fun is. Back then, the men who fucked me were always bareback. You were fucking another male and boys can’t get pregnant, so no reason for a rubber. Yes, I know the fault in that logic but that was how it was back then. So, I’ve always preferred raw sex and not wasting a load.
Watching BB porn and reading BB fiction that featured stealthing and young dudes (18+) getting pozzed up whether intentionally or innocently.
Stealthing.
Personally I do believe porn and drugs have had quite some influence on my sexuality.
My other fetishes stemmed into discovering bug chasing.
Hooking up with only other poz guys really made me associate my sexual arousal with guys that understood where I was coming from. Being poz has linked itself to sex appeal in a way.
Hooking up with only other poz guys really made me associate my sexual arousal with guys that understood where I was coming from. Being poz has linked itself to sex appeal in a way.
No … it had everything to do with being in love with a poz man who eroticized the bug, incorporated that into our love making and yes … it fucking turned me on.
I saw someone talk about it online, and I got horny.
Porn and my friends dancing.
It was definitely influenced by watching bareback poz porn.
BB porn.
Watching porn.
Yeah, the bareback porn and public sex… eventually I just wanted to get poz loads.
Yes it was.
Recreational drugs for sure, and possibly bareback porn.
I hate condoms. Bb had always felt natural and better.
I’ve never been a fan of condoms. That’s probably what started me on it. It also felt so edgy. So wrong. It was such a turn on.
Yes by watching the wasted aids men porn makes my dick so fucking hard wishing that wasted man was breeding me.
Potentially.
I just remember learning about HIV, which immediately peaked my interest. Ever since learning about it i’ve always been curious about it. Slowly over time a feeling of wanting and needing it developed. But the exact influence I do not really remember.
I’m 100% bareback. Since the pandemic, I realized life can change dramatically and I have to enjoy it while I can. I’ve never liked condoms and now I won’t wear or take a covered cock.
I started having sex with men when I was 8 yrs old. There is part of me that is turned on by having someone use me to get off in. Kind of like I’m giving up control. I do like to just be in the moment with sex and not have to think practically any more than I have to – it takes me out of the moment. So, I think having a guy raw fucking me, knowing he can infect me and I’m OK with it is similar to when I was a kid and just giving in and letting a guy use me to get off in. I would want it to be recorded. I want a visual record and be able to share it with others. I have been wanking to verbal conversion porn for several years.
Also, I have romanticized it some. I want to know who infects me. It’s better if it’s a buddy, and great if it’s someone I’m dating and forming a LTR.
I love the idea of being bred by anonymous men.
No. One’s fantasies continue to branch out and this is kind of an extension of them.
Interest just has evolved from reading bareback stories, and watching bareback videos, and when I do meet other men, leaving the option of a condom to the top; telling the top that I prefer bareback, to feel their warmth of skin-on-skin in me, and to feel a cock pulsing its cum in me.
Bareback porn and drugs.
Seeing all bareback porn and guys who are poz and breeding definitely turned me on.
Yes! Bareback porn that I knew was poz exchange, drugs especially meth was so fucking hot.
BF tested poz. Then I definitely wanted to be. I already was a total bb slut.
I believe it was my early exposure to pornography and how drawn I was too gay porn instantly – condoms were a turn off and all I would watch was bareback sex and unprotected anal sex in my porn.
Being raped by someone at 14 that thought he was poz when he did it.
Poz porn made me want to be a bug chaser.
Watching bareback porn has spurred on my interest in bug chasing.
Idk. I saw a documentary about it, and got horny. Never really used condoms before that.
I’d have to say it was bareback and breeding porn that got me here.
Not really, though I did become addicted to breeding from bare porn.
My first lover was very deliberate about teaching me that as a bottom I was bonding with him every time he gave me his load. I think this was the mentality that created my need to want to find a lover who would poz me.
Yeah its started with BB porn, I never liked condoms, I feel when you have sex with someone and they cum inside you or you in them, that’s the most intimate you can be with someone.
Porn.
Bareback porno.
I started getting fucked raw as a teen.
Treasure Island Media and Hot Desert Knights.
I started having sex with older men at 14/15, I didn’t receive any sex ed at school (in a very religious area of the US) nor did I get any guidance at home (parents were ignorant of sexual health). I had no interest in drugs until after I converted. Then at about 15/16 I was introduced to the concept of chasing by someone I met online. He became a mentor of sorts, even though we didn’t actually meet in person until 7-8 years later. He introduced me to a lot of different kinks, fetishes and points of view. His approach was one of providing awareness of things and encouraging me to think for myself and try things for myself. It became clear to me that HIV and bugs were just a fact of life and I accepted them as such. I wanted to be the master of my own destiny.
Getting pregnant with HIV is my most influential thought.
Probably having sex at a young age and the driving desire to not have control.
I started at young age before HIV emerged.
I think by watching bareback porn and having my first passive bareback anal sex at age fifteen for money.
I came into meth addiction, which served to nearly kill me, but that’s what removed my inhibition to chasing. I’ve recovered from both meth and AIDS.
Bareback porn… watching Ethan Wolfe stealth. And pozzing Ollie. From there it was non stop stories on breedingzone and then twitter porn which sadly is dying down cause of Elon.
Learning about HIV in school and it was something gay men get. And then having bareback sex since age 18.
Poz fiction pulled the trigger. Then I started seeking pozzing porn, especially the verbal scenes where the neg bottom begs for it and the toxic top encourages the bottom. Mmmm.
Watching bareback porn.
Maybe from bareback porn prior to the existence of prep.
Q36. If you became poz on purpose, can you share more about your experiences, such as whether this created any negative or positive impacts for you, or whether it affected your life in any way, whether good or bad.
Some negative impacts. Cost of meds is out of reach for me. Most of my previous fuckbuds are no longer interested.
No I’m still healthy.
It didn’t really affect my life too much. But it did have a positive effect on me because I achieved what I wanted to achieve and got rid of the anxiety about being a cumdump. And I stopped taking PrEP after being on it for 5 years. It was very liberating.
Made me more confident and encouraged my controlling side.
I chose to be poz and overall it has changed my life very little. I feel a lot more relieved from the anxieties that used to haunt me about health concerns. The way it affects me socially though is that I feel like I can’t be proud openly about my chasing past. I do stay undetectable for my partner’s sake (he’s neg) but overall things are okay on the poz side of things. I accepted that I was going to participate in risky pig sex, and I chose to experience it fully and live it all. I wanted to be poz to be a pig to the fullest extent.
I was turned down a lot when I told a neg before prep I was poz and undetectable but found it was a good filter as I was more into the hardcore raw breeding sex only poz guys fuck and into. Also prep came along and made loads of subs who are wanting me to fuck and not bothered by hiv. I recently find guys stop prep because they are into risky raw breeding and they want to be pozzed up and I get loads of dms to load up poz toxic subs but I like it to be the real raw bb sluts to be bred by poz men knowing that they are a real filthy pig hole and deserve to be marked poz. I also get fucked easier than a prep sub because I don’t have to say anything knowing that I can get fucked like a whore and be bred sloppy like most prep guys try to get but fail to know how to be a hole that men breed like porn stars are pozzed up to be one of them and glad I got positive a month before prep trial started and I have been fucked by hundreds of men in a weekend sex club event easy.
I have no regrets whatsoever. HIV sex is one of my two biggest fetishes. I love being HIV positive. Being positive has given me freedom. Being positive has given me power. And both of those are aphrodisiacs.
Nope it made me easier to whore out to whoever, wherever.
Kinda fuzzy on whether i was intentional about it. consciously no, but understanding the risks and choosing to exclusively have bareback sex where men cum inside me definitely feels like it carries the intention.
It was relieving to know I got it finally & didn’t need to worry about it. I loved being a part of a community that loved the same sexually explicit stuff I liked. It has caused some issues when it comes to sexual interaction with people I care about. If I care about them I don’t want to infect them. It’s the hookups I don’t care about. The ones that aren’t on prep & take cock & cum from anyone. That’s how I got it. They must want it too.
I took so many loads – 1on1, in saunas and bathhouses, chem parties and orgies and I look back on them positively – I learnt a lot of life lessons in slings or pressed against gloryholes, and I wouldn’t change it for the world.
It has helped my relationship of 19 years immensely. He no longer feels guilt when breeding me. Immediately after my diagnosis we went home and fucked. It was the most liberating experience of my life.
I become more slutty, did more risky stuff, started using chems and fisting, blood slamming etc.
I have not had any negative impact yet, but nobody in my private life knows that I’m poz yet. There have been positive impacts, such as being invited to more taboo sex parties. Fucking with poz guys seems to be popular, even with guys who are on PrEP.
I love being a faggot pig and it has encouraged me to be very slutty.
I would say positive effect. I can freely be who I am and do what I want without the risk or fear of getting pozzed.
I started serving a Dom who told me cumdumps should always be raw fucked and pozzed. I allowed the situation to give me “permission” to do what I had always wanted to. I flushed my PreP that night and he was the first to poz me. I was diagnosed with full blown AIDS and was seriously ill with pneumonia last year but it didn’t make me regret it a bit. It shocks even me that I feel that way.
I became poz through a blood slam from a gifter that I knew was off of meds. It is a major accomplishment of my life goals. I understand some may want to stay clear of me even if I am undetectable, but I don’t regret it. The fact that I am poz and technically have AIDS is such a turn on to me.
Raw sex has become more familiar.
It has made me very happy and proud to be Poz and live with HIV. this is why I am still a bugchaser, and getting HIV from any man I have sex with is a huge driver and source of pleasure. As well as I am happy to feel that what is expected from HIV is progressively becoming effective.
Many tops said they only played safe. I figured out quickly that what they really wanted was to meet you so they could check you out and feel more comfortable. Once they met me, saw that I owned a nice house, had a car, a good job, and could actually hold an intelligent conversation they would let their guard down some. By allowing them to attempt safe sex first, then telling them that the condom was irritating, 90% would say that they were ok taking off if I wanted. The answer was always yes.
Two factors:
1. Did not want to run on a razor blade any longer.
2. The guy I was in love with was supposedly poz.
My bf became poz first and refused to have sex with me, he was afraid of converting me. I became a no limits whore hoping I would become poz so we could start having sex again. It didn’t work, when I converted he ran and was ashamed thinking he gave it to me.
I blood slammed so I could convert faster.
good or bad.
I never really made any attempts to pursue intentionally getting pozzed.
None I loved chasing and love being infected.
I just kept trying. Taking as many Poz cocks as I could. And slamming blood and tearing my hole while high. Getting it fisted in my hole too. But I’m just horny and better defiled than before.
I had an amazing time chasing the bug and stuck have one hell of a time still chasing other strains from other toxic gifters. Negatives- More health issues and trips to the doctor for regular labs.
Positives- It gave me a confidence that I did not have prior to converting and makes me feel sexy.
It has given me some of the best fucks ever. There have been a few brief periods when I have felt ill, but nothing serious. I feel amazing and powerful when I am on a meds break and toxic.
I wanted to be pozzed in the worst way. One night, my partner at the time and I had gone to the baths. I was flying on meth and decided that I was going to get fucked…multiple loads dumped in my ass.
Partner was downstairs in the shower or something. I lay down in the sling with the door open. A guy I had known & played with several times before stood in the doorway, with a buddy of his. Both of these guys were definitely poz. I knew the one that I knew was a total pig like me, so he would nut have cared that I did not douche. His buddy also didn’t care.
The guy I knew shoved his cock in me first and kept fucking me till he dumped his load in my ass. He then shoved his tongue in me and started rimming my dirty fuck hole.
Once he was done, his buddy (who had a bit of the wasting look) shoved his cock in my dirty hole and fucked me fir a while, then dumped a huge toxic load in my ass.
About a week to 10 days later I had the fuck flu.
It has been the best decision I ever made. I only wish I had gotten knocked up at a much younger age.
Has not changed anything. In fact I’m getting more sex than before. I still play with my regulars but have found a whole lot more guys who want me to play with them.
When I tested poz, I was terrified to tell my husband. He remained negative for all of our 27 years together. He was SO incredibly supportive to me, and I was so thankful for that!!
My cousin infected, got extremely turned on when he told me he was hiv+…there was no negative impact on my life, I’m happy, and I’ve had a great life after being pozzed.
All good.
No I don’t have any regrets it hasn’t changed my attitude and personally.
I’m neutral in this question. I don’t feel any way.
Positive. Setter having much more sleazy raw action.
I have been pretty stressed out about it lately, but it will pass. I’ve always wanted this and now I have it.
Lost friends but gained likeminded friends.
Being poz was such a turn on, and finding hot poz black men into breeding white ass was so fucking amazing.
No real impact.
After being contacted by a friend who I am sexually active with that he tested positive, and his boyfriend tested positive too. I figured it was meant to be and got tested … and it was positive.
It has impacted my life (and those around me) in ways I could not have foreseen let alone prevented or mitigated. I used to be reckless with my health and my ability to convert others. Now, I take a more common sense approach to my health, status and others. When discussing conversion and chasing with curious neg guys or chasers, I’m matter of fact and highlight the good, the bad, the ugly side of chasing, conversion; as well as wider repercussions like unintended consequences that I have experienced.
• Do I regret doing it? No.
• Do I regret how/when I did it? Broadly speaking, no.
• Would I change anything? Only how I deliver the news to my loved ones.
• One thing would I tell my past self: You have undiagnosed health issues, be more receptive towards taking meds.
It was with my partner/Master who has been in the community as a Gifter for quite awhile. I have no regrets, but some of the negatives were, the flu, that was horrible I had a very strong response, and some of the negative kickback from the local BDSM community and chapter Master was a member of, we experienced some harassment and Master had to leave the chapter.
It was the horniest thing I’ve ever experienced.
Q37. Is there anything you can think of that is motivating you to become poz, where you feel the need to become poz or can you share more about your motivation if you have already been pozzed on purpose?
Poz has become a primary focus for me in my fantasies and nothing turns me on more these days. I want to push to the next level of taking poz loads and feeling ultimate pleasure. I have been speaking to a guy who has taken poz loads already and he has actively encouraged me to stop prep and have more bareback fun. I’m hoping he gets pozzed soon so he can poz me.
The belief that sex will be more fun and enjoyable.
I am wanting to be poz so bad it’s all I can think about now.
I could never experience being poz until I was.
I feel like the idea of becoming poz gives me many feelings, the ones in question 15 and 13.
The horny and naughty and risky behavior of the bareback sex give me that sensations too, but the poz chasing is even more potent. I feel aroused by it.
It makes me feel comfortable too. I would still be very happy with myself having or not HIV. I would actually be even more comfortable and even more happy if I was HIV+. I don’t say that I wouldn’t feel ashamed. I know I’ve said that I don’t want to became poz now because my family could somehow discover it and make me feel bad. But then I would be feeling ashamed but their reaction about it, not my feeling about being poz. I would be happy to be POZ and a part of the brotherhood.
In question 13, I agree with every way with the ones I marked.
The acceptance of having sex with other poz man.
The attraction of poz man: they are definitely more attractive. They are stronger and have better sex.
The sensation of community: being part of the poz brotherhood is something that makes me feel happy and proud of who I’ve bacame. A very united and strong community
Curiosity, desire and fantasy: all walk together for me.
Freedom: the way that I feel like I would be a stronger man, and never have to even think about wear a condom again, because I definitely must pass this potent seed and show it power to other man and convert them. Take them to this wild and so good feel of freedom too.
Power: when I became poz, I will definitely not take meds. I will try to convert as many men as possible, wanting or not. I will only take meds to reduce my viral load for a time and take care of my health. Then I will start to poz many man again. The sensation of power and infecting other men is incredible. But I really think that it will be a good thing for them, even if they don’t want to. Because of my belief, I will lie and try hard to infect as many man as many ways I could do it.
Relief: I will no more have ever to be scared, or nervous of having HIV+ or getting infected. Because I would already be, right? Hehe. Together with the relief comes the freedom sensation.
Reproduction: I feel like carrying the seed is something that must be pass, like some type of seed every gay man should have. Something we must cultivate to infect others and bring them to the poz brotherhood.
Risk: I’ve said that before. I’ve had sex from my 17y to 19y all bareback and without prep. I didn’t know why, but the risk got me excited, I can’t lie. The risk of getting infected makes me even more horny.
Science: nowadays, we can have HIV and be healthy, so we can still spread the seed, convert as many gay man to the brotherhood, and nothing bad will happen to us.
I feel the need to become poz because my boyfriend wanted to become poz. He died due to a genetic disease. I want to do what we both planned to do.
My husband is poz. And it’s a bond we both want to share. Connecting us on a level that will be unbreakable.
Pure horniness honestly.
Sexual desire.
It’s simply more of a “if it happens, it happens”.
I need to be completely dominated by a man. The ultimate in power over another man is pozzing him. I love being a slutty faggot bbtm and need a dom top to convert me.
I want the connection with the community, I want to freely have more bareback sex without the worry, I want to die from AIDS so I don’t have to live in this shithole world anymore.
Husband finds it erotic and has greatly influenced my feelings on it. I also find myself wanting to be bred every time I see a man with a pox-centric tattoo.
My motivation is so that I can feel free when having sex and not have to worry about being a cumdump. I kind of like that feeling of slowly dying and I’d really like to just fuck around in risky situations.
Be a better slut without worrying.
Feel the brotherhood and kinship and sharing strains with my poz brothers.
Just the ultimate bond.
I want to have as much filthy sex as possible and being poz will make me more attractive to them men I want who are typically poz themselves.
My motivation was to be able to stop PrEP and also be able to become more of a top. I discovered more bottoms were emerging that wanted to be Pozzed, so I wanted to be able to convert them since I was getting bored with being a bottom all the time. I wanted to be more of a top as I got older and bottoms were wanting my dick more if it was Poz.
One of the best things that ever happened, and hope more powerful stuff becomes available in the future.
If you’re going to be engaging in risky sex, might as well do it all and say “fuck it!”
Nothing motivated me other than being avowed bareback sex without condoms with men now.
I want secretly to be infected, not knowing who did it.
I would LOVE to have a Sire or father figure patriarch. Be part of his family. To then be part of gifting others to bring into the fold. To embrace the gift and be proud to pass it along.
Having free sex with men and bareback group sex turns me on , and the fact that I love cum in my ass mouth.
I knew everyday I would be HIV positive.
It just turns me on when you chat and talk to like minded guys into the same and seeking it.
I have a need to be part of something and maybe self-destruct.
Being a twink and youngest attracted lots of men who are up for breeding their poz seed and now I’m poz and look manly older and bald beaded like the type that I was pozzed up by and hot to become the manly poz pig I was bred by and now breeding most men types that before some of them weren’t into me as a think but are now they like me being poz manly and into the poz kink fetish without asking and knowing that I was by how I look like a poz pig man.
An impulsive moment or a connection to a sexual partner or the buzz of fantasizing.
The thought of a man infecting me turns me on.
I don’t feel a need.
I want to be known as a dirty whore.
I am poz. I love being part of the poz brotherhood. And I love being sought out to infect others.
Letting a poz guy fuck me is like giving him a gift I may get one back I can spread to others it’s like liquid glue.
I just feel a very strong urge to become pozzed for me its sexual and i have a very strong need to become infected with HIV.
By becoming and managing HIV and others, I’d be more and more comfortable having more bareback fun, which is something I enjoy with trepidation occasionally.
I want another to decide for me, I don’t want to know and want to be forced into this.
The freedom of always getting multiple tops cum in my ass and the power of being a gifted to monster cock tops.
I love being an anonymous bareback gangbang cumdumpster.
It turns me on and I cannot explain it.
Being isolated, then expanding my socials to locate other giver/chasers for uninhibited and empty casual sex.
Recreation of the intimacy of bareback sex with prior boyfriend after breaking up.
I don’t want to be poz, I am married and that would be an awkward conversation to have. and if I was actively pursuing bareback sex with anonymous tops, if you do get pozzed, does that take the edge of, is the risk over then? Is it the chase part that is so exciting? Where is the danger and risk when you do become poz?
I already have a life-limiting condition and knew that this would be the cause of my death. If I was poz there would be that “unknown “ element back in my life and death.
I’m not motivated, just don’t really care.
I feel to be a true cumdump you must be poz.
I don’t necessarily want to be poz, but since I prefer bareback sex and I can’t take Prep daily as it messed around with my cholesterol levels (already on the low side, after 3 years on Prep, my levels dropped more that 50%. My HDL was 62 and my LDL was 14. After stopping Prep they rose back to the normal levels for me of 95 & 28.) At that point, I really decided that if it happens, it happens and I deal with it then. I do tend to play more with people who are undetectable as they really know what their status is. They could be lying, but generally speaking, undetectable’s know they are undetectable.
I have no motivation to be healthy all the time. I have never cared or been worried about someone with HIV or STI shoving their bare cock inside me and cumming ball deep inside me. I never ask status. Plus if someone wants to fuck me and cum inside me I let him. I always dress so my ass is easy access for sex.
I like feeling like shit, the fact that I have a man on top of me trying to end my shitty life makes me horny.
I figure older guys are probably poz, and since i like guys with grey hair breeding my teenage hole i will prob get pozzed anyway.
I think in my mind I have tied being poz with complete acceptance of my homosexuality. Somewhere along the line I seem to have set in my mind a point of no return when I can truly be who I am supposed to be as a gay man and being poz is that point.
Want it as a trophy of being a gay whore and to share with like minded chasers.
Best I can figure is that I’ve just always had that need in me deep down. It manifested before I even knew chasing was a thing and I knew I was attracted to HIV and poz men before I knew there was a poz community and before I’d even started to watch porn.
Nothing.
I would loved to get pozzed up but I won’t do it because I am in a vanilla relationship with a wonderful man now for 11 years. I can’t do it because of him but if I was single, yes, I would get my asshole all pozzed up.
Just the idea of being pozzed by someone turns me on, after being exposed to poz porn and gift giving , that kind of verbal play really turned me on so much that it started to change how I thought. The thought of being connected to someone like that, to having their dna inside me kinda makes me feel crazy.
The brotherhood I have seen is a motivation. Also the sexual freedom, not having to worry about it.
I’ve been fucked by poz on purpose because I wanted to break the ultimate taboo.
It’s no longer a death sentence. So being able to submit to a poz daddy and catching the virus isn’t as wholly scary as I once thought.
It’s like a spirit of lust takes over, and I desire to become a receptacle for poz seed only.
Development of better medication would motivate me to take the leap.
Freedom.
I am more excited than ever before…it’s my time !!!
I’ve seen so many of my friends convert and I still haven’t. It’s definitely not for lack of trying! I feel like they’re better sluts than I am in a way, because guys who’ve had that kind of sex have traditionally gotten POZZED. And because I still haven’t, I feel like I haven’t been a big enough slut.
Well haven’t gotten it yet but if I did I would put on here for u. But because of my one friend I’m ok if I get and enjoy it.
I want to have power.
Looking out for a master collaring me, infecting me and forcing to live a poz life.
I have had thousands of sex partners and shared numerous blood slams and have contracted no diseases. I believe I may be immune to it. I feel frustrated.
The desire to be given the virus that defines me as a faggot.
The fear and thrill of guys unknowingly infecting me.
How sleazy and taboo.
HIV+ fucker are hot.
Pregnancy.
Well the main motivator is the aspect of debauchery and submission. I’m extremely submission so I thoroughly enjoy the idea of submitting to a man or being forced to accept this life changing gift. Having no choice but to be infected by the devil.
I have always thought I should be poz.
I feel like I bugchase for a few reasons.
1. As a bid for control, like I’m contracting it on my own terms.
2. I also have a breeding fetish, so I sort of treat being pozzed as the ultimate breeding.
3. Some part of me deep down just really, really wants it, I just feel to a certain level ‘incomplete’ without it.
Because while infection may only happen once, you can be pozzed repeatedly. The verbal and physical interaction and excitement continues.
Bring married to a Poz undetectable person makes it more accepting for me.
Sex partner who made me beg for his poz load.
I just feel like I have to go there!
To become part of the Brotherhood and leaving a legacy with my strain living on in those I convert.
I have struggled with it for several years, sometimes barebacking and worrying, until Prep came along. I took prep for several years but it has never felt right with me. Six months ago, I came off Prep, and it feels a lot better to be fucked bareback by strangers without Prep.
I am an active chaser: I do want to get HIV eventually, but I’m in no hurry. I go for anonymous sex in saunas a lot, but a few days ago, a newly poz guy local to my area, got chatting with me on Grindr, and says he wants to give it to me. I really want to, but am also holding back because I am nervous. He feels like a dead cert: like he will definitely poz me… which thrills and scares me equally. ‘Eventually’ is different to ‘right now’.
I think I am motivated by a lot of different things, from self-destructive urges to community. It does feel like deliberately getting HIV would be a kind of semi-suicide without killing myself, and would put me in contact with some kind of ‘lineage’ of HIV+ gay men through the ages. I definitely want it but cannot fully explain why, and I definitely don’t want to actually kill myself.
I am very much into kink and being pozzed is the ultimate kink.
The few times I have been with a poz guy (that I know of), the intensity of the sex was overwhelming.
Attracted to the dark sexuality surrounding it. Wishing to be so sexually free, desirable, part of the brotherhood community, and knowing HIV is now manageable, no longer a death sentence.
Sexual desire.
I am older and want to live more authentically the life I wanted to have as a young gay man.
Just want to not worry about getting it anymore.
I can’t really say at this point, perhaps it’s knowing I won’t be able to contract something I would get. Hopefully that person is a long time partner and not just a fling.
It just comes about randomly when I get really aroused, having too much caffeine, seeing sissy porn, bareback porn, and getting a notification from BBRT. The urge can just pop up then, and it’s intense.
I will become desirable as a gift giver to people whi are far better looking than me and normally wouldn’t look twice at me.
It’s all over my twitter and in some poignant places on the gay chat apps. My closest fuck buddies know and I tell some of the kinkier random hookups. Generally they agree but and turn them onto. The last three notified when I convert so they could be one of the first few conversed by me that is another mind fuck and Fuck first hand making me really horny right now thinking about it I tell them that I’ve converted or just have sex with them and then they find out after?????
Being even more of a cum pig.
Being the sub slave I am I would love to get it from a dominant partner or poz Master.
Far as motivation goes i feel its my desire to become poz has increased dramatically to the point it’s something I desperately want.
As a total bareback cumdump bottom I live for loads and getting tops off. Being a poz bottom and giving every indication that I am 100% open for business to any man who needs to drop a load is where I was made to be.
I don’t care if I become Poz, I want all the cock I can get.
Thinking about it gives me an intense arousal.
Connection with other poz brothers.
I remember the all the panic & fear when the virus first appeared and guys started dying (not forgetting the UK government’s ‘Don’t die through ignorance’ campaign. Society was a lot less tolerate / accepting of gays in the last century, even up to the millennium. I thought that:
a) playing ‘safe’ isn’t a 100% guarantee of staying safe;
b) sex was never supposed to be ‘loaded’ with this unstated fatality;
c) bare sex (whilst bad) was a taboo that became increasingly appealingly;
d) Unless you were celibate, becoming poz seemed inevitable, (no matter how safe you tried to be).
So I decided I wanted to take control, deciding when; where, how and by whom, I would be ‘infected’. It’s my life; my decision.
HIV is now manageable. Does not carry as much stigma as years ago.
Like I stated earlier, I feel incomplete without it. Part of my identity as a gay man has to include HIV.
I need those lipodystrophy veins. I have received multiple poz loads (did not become infected though) And every time I ejaculated hands free, which I just can’t if HIV is not involved. There is this unexplainable burning desire for it. Like my mind is pre-infected.
Poz men are great sex and some of the nicest people I meet. They are comfortable with their sexual orientation and poz status, living life as they choose, and do not accept the shame or stigma that others may try to impose on them.
I just want to be pozzed.
A guy on Twitter, who is apparently in the process of converting.
He says he suffered from severe depression for 10 years and finally, through a countless number of sessions with his therapist, he discovered that the only cure was HIV.
He also strongly encourages fellow chasers to get appropriate help before making the decision.
What I’ve learned from him is that genuine need of poz does exist and that poz is not only hot but can be the meaning of life.
Now I see myself following a path, only to my instincts for now, destined to where he is.
A deep desire to get knocked up. And carry a man’s babies inside me.
Tied to some one for all me, also to have someone i care about beg me for me for it then make it real.
I want to join the poz brotherhood why?
Because I want to.
Because it excites me.
Because it arouses me.
Because the choice is mine and nobody else’s.
Because it makes me feel free and not have to worry about someone’s status when having bareback sex.
I find being poz to be an important part of being a sub/slave. it’s exciting to slowly lose control of my own body.
I would ultimately like to poz someone who was willing. Not by stealth but wanting it like I did.
I remember my uncle telling me he was poz and how hard that made me. I was much younger and I am ready to get pozzed.
I want to be part of the poz brotherhood and feel empowered by it.
Being on prep and experiencing the thrill of safely taking poz loads, quickly interested me in doing the same without the safety of prep for maximum risk thrill.
Love anonymous sex and the thought of being pumped full of poz seed.
Am going to a big gay event overseas where becoming poz will be easy.
I think it’s the dopamine rush from something rather taboo. The feeling that I and the breeder will be so focused on each other, we kinda lose ourselves. Lots of dirty talk during it. If it could be with someone I knew and felt a connection with, all the better. Although, the thought of a conversion party sounds very hot too.
My desire to become infected evolved during the pandemic. While I have always preferred raw sex, I was more careful because I had friends die from AIDS back in the early nineties. The pandemic brought into focus the fragility of life. I changed my attitude from being somewhat cautious to I’ll fuck how I want and that is bareback. My new policy is if someone lets me in bareback they’ve implicitly given me permission to cum in them. Therefore, if I let someone in raw they have implicit permission to cum in me, and I won’t turn down any cock I’m horny for. If he’s poz, then let’s record him infecting me while dirty talking about it.
To be part of something that a small number of people crave…to buck up against the norms, to feel a thrill of being poz and helping other young dudes who are chasing to live their best life pozzed up!
The community, and tattoo.
I don’t want to be poz. I fucking think about it all the time but I will always take my daily PrEP so I don’t. I do find it hotter than hell though and to this day love watching gifter porn and chasers giving their assess up the way I did when I was with my old BF.
I love taboo stuff, and thats what’s motivating me.
I’m bored nothing turns me on.
My hard dick is motivating me.
To be part of something.
I think ultimately it is about embracing the inevitable … I have wanted it for so long. I am honestly surprised I still test negative.
I just want it.
A sense of power within myself and feeling connected to poz people.
I just want to enjoy raw sex. The little part that finds added excitement of taking a detectable, HIV infected cock is like whipped cream and a cherry on my bareback sundae.
I’m suicidal and want to be fucked to death.
No. One’s fantasies continue to branch out and this is kind of an extension of them.
Only motivation is just willing to have it happen, no overpowering ‘need’ but just the acceptance of the option to have it happen.
To be like all the other guys before me that have became poz and chased it and embraced it. I want to be like them.
The feeling of no turning back and making that ultimate step with a high viral penis filling my guts.
As a submissive person in general – it carries over heavily into my sex life and I find it the ultimate act of submission to willing submit and surrender to a poz too and be blessed with the opportunity to take his toxic loads and become HIV positive. It’s all I think about.
No it just makes me horny.
The thought of carrying someone’s DNA which has been passed to me in an incredibly intimate and precious act, and which I may be able to foster and pass on myself is very powerful.
I just like being dirty.
I just kind of wanna get it over with. Since it is gonna happen eventually since I don’t use condoms.
I feel so incomplete without it. In my mind being gay = HIV+.
No, just seeing now there is porn on it, and it makes me crazy horny to watch it, and then I start seeing in machobb etc.
The ultimate sacrifice. My life for sex.
A desire to spread it.
I want to get knocked up with HIV by a dominant man and carry him inside my body.
I want to be used senseless even to the point I have to be tided up.
That people will be afraid of me.
I’m tired of hiding.
A desire inside me wanting to be poz and take poz cum up my ass.
The idea of willingly getting infected is compelling. I like the chase. One reservation I have about converting is that I’ll no longer be a neg chaser. When I hear guy say the love chasing even after pozzing, I find that comforting.
To feel I belong.
I don’t feel motivation on being poz, I just enjoy bareback sex.
I have to echo what a respondent stated in last years comments the what started as a curiosity has become somewhat of an obsession.
Poz men need sexual partners like anyone else, and it makes me horny to invite them to cum in me and also for me to fuck poz ass.
