2025 Bug Chasing and Gift Giving Survey Results
Thank you to the 2025 Bug Chasing and Gift Giving Survey participants for bringing this survey to life. This year’s survey consisted of 30 question and answer sets, plus 3 free text responses where participants could provide a deeper level of information.
This was the 5th survey conducted at Curious Chaser, with 318 responses received between January 1, 2025 and December 31, 2025. As each question was optional, participants could choose which questions they wanted to answer, so not all of the questions will achieve the full number of responses and some that allowed respondents to choose multiple responses will show a higher total than the number of participants.
Please be aware that this is not a scientific survey and the results have not been validated in any way, which means this data is provided as is for general information only and must not be used for decision making or for any other purpose. Thank you to those who participated in this survey and stay tuned for the next one.
Q01. Where do you currently live?
Argentina (1)
Australia (14)
Austria (1)
Belgium (5)
Brazil (2)
Canada (23)
Denmark (3)
France (4)
Germany (15)
Greece (2)
Japan (1)
Mexico (2)
New Zealand (2)
Netherlands (4)
Norway (1)
Philippines (2)
Poland (1)
Spain (2)
Sweden (1)
Switzerland (2)
United Kingdom (34)
United States of America – Alabama (2)
United States of America – Alaska (1)
United States of America – Arizona (5)
United States of America – Arkansas (1)
United States of America – California (12)
United States of America – Colorado (3)
United States of America – Connecticut (1)
United States of America – Delaware (1)
United States of America – Florida (9)
United States of America – Georgia (3)
United States of America – Hawaii (1)
United States of America – Idaho (1)
United States of America – Illinois (4)
United States of America – Indiana (5)
United States of America – Iowa (1)
United States of America – Kansas (3)
United States of America – Kentucky (2)
United States of America – Louisiana (2)
United States of America – Maine (1)
United States of America – Maryland (1)
United States of America – Massachusetts (1)
United States of America – Michigan (2)
United States of America – Minnesota (3)
United States of America – Mississippi (1)
United States of America – Missouri (1)
United States of America – Montana (2)
United States of America – Nebraska (1)
United States of America – Nevada (1)
United States of America – New Hampshire (1)
United States of America – New Jersey (2)
United States of America – New Mexico (1)
United States of America – New York (7)
United States of America – North Carolina (1)
United States of America – North Dakota (1)
United States of America – Ohio (6)
United States of America – Oklahoma (1)
United States of America – Oregon (4)
United States of America – Pennsylvania (2)
United States of America – Puerto Rico (1)
United States of America – Rhode Island (1)
United States of America – South Carolina (1)
United States of America – South Dakota (1)
United States of America – Tennessee (1)
United States of America – Texas (8)
United States of America – Utah (1)
United States of America – Vermont (2)
United States of America – Virginia (2)
United States of America – Washington (6)
United States of America – Washington DC (2)
United States of America – West Virginia (2)
United States of America – Wisconsin (4)
United States of America – Wyoming (1)
Q02. What is your age?
18 to 20 years of age (5)
21 to 22 years of age (4)
23 to 25 years of age (9)
26 to 30 years of age (18)
31 to 35 years of age (24)
36 to 40 years of age (38)
41 to 45 years of age (34)
46 to 50 years of age (32)
51 to 55 years of age (24)
56 to 60 years of age (19)
61 to 65 years of age (24)
66 to 70 years of age (7)
Over 70 years of age (2)
Q03. What is your sexual role?
Exclusive bottom (82)
Versatile bottom (84)
Fully versatile (43)
Versatile top (66)
Exclusive top (8)
Q04. What do you consider your HIV/AIDS status to be?
HIV-negative – not taking PrEP (129)
HIV-negative – taking PrEP – Apretrude (Injection) (3)
HIV-negative – taking PrEP – Descovy (Tablet) (3)
HIV-negative – taking PrEP – Truvada (Tablet) (15)
HIV-negative – taking PrEP – Generic Brand (Tablet) (8)
HIV-positive – detectable (22)
HIV-positive – undetectable (7)
Undetermined – most likely negative (28)
Undetermined – most likely positive (9)
Acquired immunodeficiency syndrome (AIDS) (1)
Q05. If you are currently taking antiretroviral medication, which drug are you using?
Biktarvy (5)
Delstrigo (1)
Triumeq (1)
Q06. Would you use doxy-PEP to prevent contracting certain STIs?
No – want to contract chlamydia (38)
No – want to contract gonorrhea (39)
No – want to contract syphilis (29)
No – just don’t want to use doxy-PEP (95)
Yes – don’t want to contract chlamydia (124)
Yes – don’t want to contract gonorrhea (123)
Yes – don’t want to contract syphilis (133)
Q07. Would you get vaccinated to prevent contracting other STI’s?
No – want to contract hepatitis A (HAV) (19)
No – want to contract hepatitis B (HBV) (19)
No – want to contract human papillomavirus (HPV) (19)
No – want to contract mpox (10)
No – just don’t want to get vaccinated (67)
Yes – don’t want to contract hepatitis A (HAV) (181)
Yes – don’t want to contract hepatitis B (HBV) (181)
Yes – don’t want to contract human papilloma virus (HPV) (143)
Yes – don’t want to contract mpox (171)
Q08. When was your most recent HIV test?
Within the past 3 months (114)
Within the past 6 months (48)
Within the past 9 months (10)
Within the past 12 months (10)
Within the past 2 years (19)
Within the past 3 years (2)
Within the past 4 years (9)
More than 5 years ago (29)
Never been tested (29)
Q09. Which type of test did you take?
Clinic – antibody test (38)
Clinic – antigen/antibody test (36)
Clinic – nucleic acid test (NAT) (2)
Clinic – unsure which test (86)
Home – finger prick (19)
Home – oral swab (22)
Q10. Have you ever tested positive for any of these sexually transmitted infections (STIs)?
Acquired immunodeficiency syndrome (AIDS) (2)
Chancroid (2)
Chlamydia (95)
Donovanosis (4)
Gonorrhea (114)
Hepatitis A (HAV) (18)
Hepatitis B (HBV) (23)
Hepatitis C (HCV) (16)
Herpes simplex virus (HSV) (57)
Human immunodeficiency virus (HIV-1) (19)
Human immunodeficiency virus (HIV-2) (2)
Human papillomavirus (HPV) (9)
Lymphogranuloma venereum (LGV) (7)
Molluscum contagiosum (4)
Mpox (3)
Mycoplasma genitalium (Mgen) (10)
Nongonococcal urethritis (NGU) (30)
Proctitis (2)
Pubic lice (33)
Scabies (29)
Syphilis (48)
Trichomoniasis (9)
Trichophyton (1)
Q11. Would you consider letting HIV progress to AIDS?
Unlikely – want to experience HIV, but do not want to experience AIDS (105)
Maybe – want to see how my body responds before making a decision (112)
Definitely – will not take antiretroviral medication so I can experience AIDS (29)
Q12. Which websites or apps do you use for hooking up with chasers and gifters?
Adam4Adam (48)
Bareback.com (45)
BarebackRT (190)
BreedingZone (183)
Curious Chaser (134)
Grindr (152)
Growlr (29)
Hinge (2)
Hornet (10)
Jack’d (5)
Romeo (29)
Recon (46)
Scruff (105)
Sniffies (143)
Squirt (38)
Surge (2)
Tinder (9)
Other (24)
Q13. Do you currently use any recreational drugs?
Amyl Nitrite / Poppers (48)
Cannabis / Marijuana (76)
Inhalants / Poppers (29)
Methamphetamine / Crystal Meth (18)
Nitrous Oxide (10)
Tobacco / Cigarettes / Vapes (57)
Q14. How would you define your bugchasing status?
Active chaser – actively chasing HIV only (48)
Active chaser – actively chasing HIV, plus other STIs (30)
Active chaser – actively chasing STIs, but not HIV (10)
Curious chaser – curious about chasing HIV only (37)
Curious chaser – curious about chasing HIV and other STIs (29)
Inactive chaser – for me bugchasing is just a fantasy (9)
Passive chaser – accept all loads and whatever happens (57)
Successful chaser – successfully chased HIV and still chasing (18)
Successful chaser – successfully chased HIV and other STIs, and still chasing (9
Q15. What age were you when you first started thinking about bugchasing?
Under 16 years of age (2)
16 to 17 years of age (10)
18 to 20 years of age (49)
21 to 22 years of age (12)
23 to 25 years of age (64)
26 to 30 years of age (29)
31 to 35 years of age (9)
36 to 40 years of age (19)
41 to 45 years of age (18)
46 to 50 years of age (20)
51 to 55 years of age (23)
56 to 60 years of age (8)
61 to 70 years of age (5)
Over 70 years of age (2)
Q16. Which option(s) most accurately describe your connection to bugchasing?
Acceptance – poz men would be more willing to have sex with me if I was poz (41)
Attraction – poz men are more sexually appealing and attractive to me (97)
Community – want to become part of the poz community (52)
Conditioning – believe society thinks all gay people have HIV/AIDS (14)
Connection – being tethered to someone for the rest of my life (34)
Curiosity – curious about what it feels like to be poz (37)
Desire – something within me makes me feel the need to be poz (96)
Destruction – aroused by becoming sick and/or dying from the virus (34)
Family – becoming infected would help create a family and a legacy (11)
Fantasy – bug chasing is just a fantasy or sexual fetish (55)
Freedom – being poz enables me to have more sexual freedom (73)
Guilt – friends and/or family have passed away from AIDS (7)
Identity – associate being poz as a part of being gay (28)
Lonely – needing to be part of something different (11)
Political – to honour and respect those who have died (45)
Power – having the ability to infect others with HIV (42)
Relief – no longer having to worry about contracting HIV (63)
Religion – the way of life and connecting with spirituality (15)
Reproduction – carrying the virus is similar to being pregnant (47)
Risk – the intense sensation associated with having risky sex (126)
Romance – getting pozzed creates a permanent bond with someone (36)
Science – due to modern science I am more comfortable being poz (40)
Slut – releasing the inner pig and embracing more intense sex (73)
Social – I know people who are poz and I want to be like them (16)
Submission – accepting what a dominant top wants to give me (82)
Taboo – doing something that is considered taboo and risky (130)
Q17. Which particular sexually transmitted infections (STIs) are you chasing?
All of them (27)
AIDS (58)
Chancroid (2)
Chlamydia (24)
Donovanosis (3)
Gonorrhea (29)
Hepatitis A (HAV) (12)
Hepatitis B (HBV) (17)
Hepatitis C (HCV) (21)
Herpes simplex virus (HSV) (9)
Human immunodeficiency virus (HIV-1) (144)
Human immunodeficiency virus (HIV-2) (123)
Human papillomavirus (HPV) (14)
Lymphogranuloma venereum (LGV) (5)
Molluscum contagiosum (12)
Mpox (7)
Mycoplasma genitalium (Mgen) (8)
Nongonococcal urethritis (NGU) (16)
Proctitis (2)
Pubic lice (16)
Scabies (9)
Syphilis (27)
Trichomoniasis (4)
Trichophyton (3)
Q18. How does bugchasing make you feel emotionally?
Afraid – scared about what might happen (64)
Aroused – turned on by the increased risk (105)
Ashamed – could never admit to being a bug chaser (26)
Comfortable – feel good about who I am (77)
Confused – cannot understand why I feel this way (48)
Defeated – seems impossible to get pozzed (5)
Excited – makes me feel more alive (57)
Frustrated – how long it takes to achieve success (86)
Horny – my hormones are driven wild (210)
Naughty – feel bad, but in a good way (195)
Nervous – thinking about it makes me feel nervous (29)
Neutral – not sure how I feel about it (8)
Proud – happy to tell others about myself (38)
Struggling – finding it tough to accept myself (27)
Worried – concerned about the impacts (36)
Q19. When do you plan on taking antiretroviral medication if you get infected?
Within 1 to 3 months (8)
Within 3 to 6 months (18)
Within 6 to 9 months (5)
Within 9 to 12 months (9)
Within 1 to 2 years (14)
Within 2 to 3 years (7)
Within 3 to 4 years (6)
Within 4 to 5 years (13)
When a healthcare professional advises I should (52)
When my body tells me I need to (76)
Before I develop AIDS (13)
After I develop AIDS (11)
Never going to take meds (31)
Q20. When do you think a successful cure for HIV might be discovered?
Within 1 to 2 years (21)
Within 2 to 3 years (22)
Within 4 to 5 years (27)
Within 5 to 10 years (42)
Within 10 to 15 years (7)
Within 15 to 20 years (18)
Within 20 to 30 years (9)
Within 30 to 40 years (2)
Within 40 to 50 years (8)
Over 50 years (7)
Will never be found (108)
Q21. At what age did you become poz?
Under 16 years of age (1)
16 to 17 years of age (1)
18 to 20 years of age (4)
21 to 22 years of age (2)
23 to 25 years of age (1)
26 to 30 years of age (5)
31 to 35 years of age (3)
36 to 40 years of age (5)
41 to 45 years of age (2)
46 to 50 years of age (1)
51 to 55 years of age (3)
56 to 60 years of age (1)
61 to 65 years of age (1)
66 to 70 years of age (1)
Over 70 years of age (1)
Q22. How long have you been poz?
1 to 3 months (2)
3 to 6 months (3)
6 to 9 months (1)
9 to 12 months (1)
1 to 2 years (3)
3 to 4 years (4)
5 to 6 years (1)
7 to 8 years (1)
9 to 10 years (2)
11 to 15 years (8)
16 to 20 years (2)
21 to 25 years (4)
Over 25 years (2)
Q23. How did you become poz?
Intentionally – bug chasing (11)
Intentionally – blood slamming (4)
Intentionally – drug use (0)
Intentionally – sharing needles (0)
Intentionally – different way (3)
Unintentionally – barebacking (12)
Unintentionally – blood slamming (0)
Unintentionally – drug use (0)
Unintentionally – sharing needles (0)
Unintentionally – different way (1)
Q24. How long did it take you to become poz?
1 to 3 months (5)
3 to 6 months (2)
6 to 9 months (1)
9 to 12 months (1)
1 to 2 years (3)
2 to 3 years (2)
3 to 4 years (1)
4 to 5 years (2)
Undetermined (1)
Q25. Has anyone ever asked you to infect them with HIV?
No – have never been asked this before (2)
Yes – have been asked, but they never followed through with it (13)
Yes – have been asked and infected them or tried to infect them (10)
Q26. Are you aware of any confirmed pozzings?
No – not yet (4)
Yes – 1 person (2)
Yes – 2 to 3 people (3)
Yes – 4 to 5 people (1)
Yes – 6 to 10 people (1)
Q27. How many of those you infected wanted to get pozzed?
None – stealthed them and pozzed them secretly (2)
Some – believe some of them wanted to get pozzed (3)
Most – believe most of them wanted to get pozzed (3)
All – certain all of them wanted to get pozzed (3)
Q28. Have you ever stealthed someone while being poz detectable?
No – would never infect an unsuspecting person (16)
Yes – avoiding the question when I was asked (4)
Yes – displaying the wrong HIV status on my profile (1)
Yes – lying by saying I was negative (2)
Yes – lying by saying I was undetectable (0)
Yes – lying by saying I didn’t know my status (0)
Yes – damaging a condom so it broke (0)
Yes – removing a condom during sex (0)
Yes – saying whatever I needed to say (2)
Q29. Based on your personal experience, would you recommend getting pozzed to others?
No – would not recommend it (9)
Yes – would definitely recommend it (19)
Q30. If you got pozzed intentionally, do you have any regrets?
No – happy with my decision to convert (25)
Yes – now experiencing dating issues (0)
Yes – now experiencing family issues (0)
Yes – now experiencing financial issues (0)
Yes – now experiencing health issues (0)
Yes – now experiencing medical issues (0)
Yes – now experiencing relationship issues (0)
Yes – now experiencing social issues (0)
Yes – now experiencing other issues (0)
Q31. Can you share more about your connection to HIV and how the desire to become HIV-positive is impacting the way you feel and whether there is anything in particular that is motivating you to become poz?
I had to be poz before I could gain first hand experience about what HIV would do inside my body.
All I can think about is poz. I can feel my brain is already infected and now need to get my body infected.
It’s hard to put into words. It’s an innate desire and a feeling of incompleteness not being POZ.
Just the feeling at the moment of the tops orgasm makes me feel like a woman being impregnated.
Have a couple of friends who are poz, and have made friends with other bugchasers and barebackers.
I don’t think I’ll feel complete as a gay man until I’m poz. It’s validation that I’m a slutty bottom to get HIV.
I have always wanted HIV ever since I heard about it growing up!
When you fall in love with a Dom and become His TPE slave, you become poz lol
I have found a lot of guys in the poz/chasing community. I find it’s easier to be frank with them and let me freak flash fly without judgement. That being said, it is hard to find people who want to mess around since I’m so open about the chase. But those that do play with me either don’t bring it up or are curious about it. So I try to bring them to the dark side!
Growing up I always heard gay men get HIV, once I started having sex I got scared that I would fall into that and disappoint the people around me. I never wore condoms cuz it felt better raw and I wouldn’t care in the moment, eventually the fear turned into a want. Maybe all gay men should be HIV positive. Maybe I should help spread it.
I don’t have any connection to HIV. I am not very sexually active, though am a submissive and have a huge corruption fetish. The thought of someone stealthing me or just evading the question of whether they were clean to the point I give in to their pressure and let them enter me bare is kind of hot. They know the load they have built up is saturated with HIV. Imagining them firmly holding onto me as they get closer and closer to pumping me full of the virus, then thrusting in as deep as they can while latching onto me so I can’t get away, and staying inside of me after they finish, their weight holding me down until past the point of no return. My body has absorbed what he shot into me. It is just incredibly hot to imagine happening.
This desire I have is getting stronger everyday. In the gay scene which I’m in is allowing me to bottom for men daily . I can’t explain why I desire HIV but I do know it drives me crazy knowing if it’s a Poz load.
The thrill of contracting HIV arouses me a lot, I’ve had sex multiple times with poz/toxic men to help my chasing along. but so far without luck. I love body modifications, and I consider chasing HIV as an extension of that.
My first long term relationship at 24 was with a Poz man in his 50s. I have slowly started idolizing him and how he lived his life. Proud poz man. Complete pig in every way. He awoke the pig in me. He was someone I looked up to and perhaps aspire to be. being married now with a man who knows nothing about that part of my life is somewhat difficult, but also know he would not approve. Now and then I let that pig out and those are the moments I am chasing.
I long for the connection of poz men I have been with in the past, and wished to have been pozzed by them
I’m not ignorant of the history of hiv/aids. Actually, Schiltz gave an anecdote in And the Band Plays On, that prior to the 70s, gay men often viewed stis as a rite of passage. I want that sexual freedom to return to the community. Sex is like giving a high-five, don’t leave a guy hanging and the condom is an antiquated tech that should be banned. A man’s cock is literally made to go inside and unload his sperm, so denying a man this fundamental need is cruel, honestly. This is a lesson I’ve internalized rather young, and if you get an sti it’s not an issue. Many bottoms are addicted to nut, but most refuse to accept the responsibility they assume when bbottoming that as a receiver, sti infection is highly probable. Don’t bring an off putting vibe to your bed, take his cum in you and be OK with whatever sti he may gift. I’m aroused by men with hiv, hep, hsv or whatever because often these men are sexually liberated and can reliably lay pipe better than guys who cum in plastic. Never thought i would still be alive 34 years later!
I’ve been masturbating to conversion porn. For some reason, it’s one of the hottest types of horns I watch. I want to make a video of a detectable guy or guys trying to infect me. If I don’t become infected after the first time, I don’t know if I’ll try again. But I likely will keep going until I am infected.
I am Neg was on Prep and not now😈 the only way I could have an orgasm was by imagining or actually taking toxic🦂poz☣cum up my neg hole. nothing compares. i just crave it and think about getting bred poz is fucking A!😈🦂☣💦🔥🦂❤☣😈
It’s the freedom without worrying about when it will happen
Got infected with the chasing meme back in the late ’90s and felt what I’d call a “morbid fascination” with it. Several decades later, I still have the fascination, but I no longer think it’s morbid. The world has changed a lot and HIV is much more manageable than it was, and I am a lot more comfortable with inner contradictions, both my own and other people’s.
I feel like I need this. It isn’t as sexual for me as it once was. I need to be HIV POZ. I need a blood slam so I can finally calm my mind. If more men were poz it would be much better for society. Eliminate the term chasers as we would all be poz.
When I came out my mom was sad because was “going to die of AIDS.” Older Percy guys did some grooming to get me to ditch condoms and raw is law and was stealthed a few times and it went from scary to sexy (and back) add in substance use and depravity and cum sluttyness and now I’m turned on by guys wanting to poz me but don’t really want to deal with HIV infection due to stigma, drs visits, and then not being a neg hole being hunted anymore.
I like how open and honest poz guys are with their sexual preferences and kinks. They are free.
I feel like when I become poz it will complete me. I will be exactly who I am supposed to be. For me it is the ultimate surrender to lust, regardless of consequence.
I’m intensely turned on by verbal dom tops that force me to submit, including taking charged loads and being pimped out to other men for their use. poz men are more sexual and liberated.
It’s something I desire to do at my age.
I identify myself as a proud cum slut. Being poz is a proof of sluttiness and would make me confident.
I always felt it would happen. Something inside me always said, you’ll get this. It was arousing.
It makes me free to follow my fetishes.
So excited.
Nothing in particular, the idea of being impregnated with some other guys DNA is hot. Also like the risk of catching it and even the risk of becoming sick from it. I like that once done there is no going back and with modern medicine I can basically control my life more. Additionally, becoming poz would let me spread my seed with purpose.
I want to become HIV positive so I can use my poz status as a means to come out as gay.
I want another man to intentionally have something of him growing inside my body like a baby. Every sex act should be potentially life-changing. And there is something about HIV/AIDS that I find incredibly arousing, and no other STD causes the same desire or feeling.
Not sure why but ever since learning about HIV and AIDS as a teen in the 90’s and knowing I was gay and getting gang banged in a porn theater at 19 the night I moved away from home loosing my “virginity” to 13 men in the small gay theater at the Jefferson Theater in PDX IN 99 who fucked me raw and fulled my hole up I was hooked on bb and knew eventually it would happen. Prep was jot even a thing so I fantasized until I found out my bf was cheating raw 4 years into a monogamous relationship I said fuck it chased for 3 years while cheating on him always raw no cock or load refused at 27 on Thanksgiving day started converting. I was so turned on, sick as a dog and missed out on all that food that year but spent all day in between being sick in the 2nd restroom at my families house buck naked stroking my rock hard newly poz infected cock and shot 10-12 loads over 10 hours. I could have bern walked in on at anytime to as I left the door unlocked but they knew I was not well and left me be. One of my best Thanksgivings ever. Fuck flu lasted 2 weeks. Officially got tested in 2009 2 years after I knew I had converted. No regrets here.
I remember thinking it was part of fucking bareback and just always wanting to go bare with other men turned me on.
It all comes down to the fact that once I achieve it, I will be more comfortable whoring myself out to random men for the sake of collecting load.
No, I don’t really understand why I feel this way.
Have had the fantasy of become infected for quite a while, and almost was able to meet a person willing to gift me. unfortunately we were never able to schedule a time to meet and we kind of drifted away. have more recently gotten the urge to make the fantasy a reality, but am not able to find any one to meet with to make it happen. not sure if it is my age or whatever, but am very willing to submit as a total bottom to any one who would want to meet.
I always have been excited by the risk when having bareback sex. When I tested positive it was a relief for me. Nowadays I am excited by giving the virus and also by getting recharged and developing new strains.
There are so many motivations. In 2002 I slept with a guy who was HIV+. He fucked me bareback and I worried about it for many years, but also jacked off about it for a long time. I started barebacking properly in 2012, and HIV was always on the horizon. Started Prep in 2016, but it really didn’t feel right for me. Finally had the courage to come off it in Summer 2023 and have been chasing HIV ever since. For me, there is the wild and horny thrill ride, the excitement of the super high risk of being fucked by men who might be poz and infectious, the self-destructive urge to fuck myself up through sex, the drive to become abject as a HIV+ man – both desired and outcast – and to know once I am poz that I have done this to myself. Completely transcended my fears about going for something crazy that I really want to get (HIV), and embraced a sense of mortality. A brush with death through thrilling sex. All of these things.
My first encounter was with a guy I met on Grindr. He was a major meth user who slammed. We were together for 12 hours using and I performed oral on him during that time nothing else. I also had a threesome with two men who were undetectable. The excitement and arousal were so intense my desires have grown stronger for more.
I got into chasing after hooking up with a guy who i later found out was poz as he was dumping his third load in me. It turned me on so much that I blew a load as he filled my ass. After that I was hooked, needing loads in my ass and turned into a situation where i could not get fucked without the guy being poz and talking about pozzing up my ass.
I find it hot AF to be full of disease.
Just love the trill of fucking bareback and not knowing whats going to happen. The small and noise men make while fucking raw is was more intense and exciting than with a condom. I don’t care if I catch HIV I just want to fuck raw and enjoy my time.
With the time I found out what makes me feel sexually free and satisfied. I needed to understand that my sexual needs are “darker” and nastier than usual. And being poz is an important part of it.
The HIV virus would be a demonstration of my complete acceptance of my homosexuality.
I was raised in a rural, conservative area before moving away to a liberal city, where I started to experiment with my sexuality and settled on bisexual. I do find myself having easier relations with men over women, and do wonder if sometimes I should lean more to one side versus the other. I have some other issues I’ve been in therapy for, but to make my sob story short, I find it hard to engage and flirt with women from these issues and commitment especially is difficult; but these difficulties I don’t find myself in when engaging with gay or bisexual men. As I am more predominantly passive/submissive, there seem to be more men than women who will engage more assertively or at least initially will bridge this gap with showing interest first, and it makes it easier to be with them.
Over time though, I do wonder if I’m more gay than bisexual, and I think this is where my interest in chasing stems from – I know relationships with women could work even if I were to convert and medicate, but I imagine it would be a harder “sell.” Converting would in a way, force my hand to pick a direction in life that I have difficulty in deciding while negative. I’ve also been stuck on the romantic aspect of it. Of finding someone I bond with and want to devote my life to, and allowing my partner to share his strain as way of deepening that bond and making a permanent, lifelong decision to commit to that person.
Just became an obsession since I have never asked for men to wear condoms, even after the aids scare came out and have been a bb bottom to daddy’s since I was 13 hanging in public restrooms in parks.
After my break off with bf I begun to cruise and I took 2 loads at my first cruising time.
Was always the taboo thing for me. Always been on the nasty side.
I am a total submissive bottom and I exist to please men. Getting a strain from the top is my deep connection to him.
Its not realistic to be celibate, so where there is sex, there is always risk because: a) condom’s break accidentally; b) there are bug stealthers around; c) you become vulnerable through taking drink or drugs; d) you become vulnerable when agreeing (or being forced) to be blindfolded; tied up; tape-gagged; placed in a sleep sack etc. There was a certain ‘inevitability’ to become poz, so twenty or so years ago, I made the decision that if it was to happen to me, then I wanted to decide when, where and by who (prefer 121 sex, I am not into threesomes; groups or gang bangs).
It feels wrong to fetishized something that’s hurt so many people, but it festers in me. so many things make it seem so fucking hot, the m-preg fantasy, the idea of something living inside me that a man put in me in such a sexual manner. and there’s the loss of inhibition, especially as a form of self harm/prolonged suicide.
It turns me on and I can’t stop fantasising to the point I feel like I want to do it.
The desire is making me want to have sex a lot more often. I am going to bathhouses a few times a week now as opposed to a couple of times a month when I was on PrEP. What is motivating me to become poz is the desire to have the virus inside me. I want to experience what it feels like to become poz.
I want to help HIV thrive and infect others. I want the virus to control my thoughts and actions. I don’t understand why I feel this way but I know I’m not alone.
The risk in particular… knowing that I might or might not get infected with the next fuck.
It seems like a cool thing to do. Lots of hot, fun guys are poz. Sex can get a bit boring, this might bring more fun and excitement to it for me. Love the idea of giving in to a super hot poz top. It also seems like a great, authentic way to stay connected with the gay community.
I was fucked bareback by a fuck buddy in 2018, when I was 28. I met up with him to smoke meth watch porn, jo, and oral. He played increasingly piggy/poz porn and got me very high. Started talking about how he wanted to breed me, how he was u+ etc. He was so horny that I got horny and let him. Just before he unloaded he admitted to being toxic and in my high state I was extremely turned on and didn’t resist at all when he bred me. When I got sober, I freaked out, got on PEP then PrEP, but the intensity of that experience stuck with me and only grew over time until now I really want it, but still take prep. I switched to the injection so that it would be harder for horny me to make the decisions. But I wrestle with it all the time.
Started with reading story’s then met a top that wanted to role play they were HIV+ and being verbal about giving it to me during sex and I said sure due to not having had sex for a while. During sex with that top and roleplaying they were HIV+ all I know is it felt like some part of me had been awoke and let loose. Before that I found the stories interesting to read but nothing else. Now I don’t go a single day where I don’t think about and get really horny with my HIV- ass being filled with a HIV+ hard dick bareback and begging them to shoot their cum load as deep as they can. Some days it scares me when I have those thoughts and urges but I always get extremely horny every single time. So while I’m not bottoming exclusively for HIV+ tops I can’t ever see me telling one no if they want to bareback and breed me.
I only masturbate to pozzing videos. I get so turned on to think about getting a toxic poz load and converting. I also get turned on by the thought of being unmedicated poz and going to book stores and parks and having sex without telling anyone I’m poz.
I want to get HIV and I won’t pass it around to as many people as I can without letting them knowing positive I want them to have a worse life than me.
As a 100% top I feel that I have a duty to the community, I feel like I’m on a mission. It’s my calling.
I don’t have much to share and really don’t want to get HIV. I prefer more visible and curable forms of STIs.
In 1989 a partner of someone I knew with AIDS was in my new city. He was a furry, stocky, skinhead and he loaded my arse. When he fucked me, I thought this could be it and my end, but didn’t give a fuck. I’m not chasing as such, just fucking hot pigs. There is something about the pig marked with the virus that has made my dick hard for 40 years.
When I first discovered a man that was the first man, 45 y.o. and I was “18” would always put on certain porn when he brought me to his house. It always was, raw is law and stealthing, and a biohazard symbol with letters but it would be a boy like me getting gangbanged by men with those scorpion tats and biohazard symbols. But this man was technically my first sex as in willing penetration.he never brought up condoms. Or knew to ask status. But as he pops his mushroom head into my pink tight “virgin” hole I lightly scream out in pain and asked about condoms, he says, oh baby boy, always remember, raw is law. And anyways, you r obviously clean and …long pause. I’m sure I am too. But as he said that he put that lil bottle to my nose and then I got extremely hot the horny and moaning and he slide into my up opening boy hole. He growls and pulls my neck back and kisses me so hard but I loved it. And I never called his this before and in the heat of the moment I moaned, fuck daddy it hurts but I don’t want you to stop. He then said, well boy now your hole is mine I popped that cherry. Don’t worry I like my dick red. I didn’t realize he fucked me up. But I didn’t care. Cuz he said all the right things. But on the way to drop me off at my parents I asked about those tats. He said, oh shit you don’t know? Baffled look on my face he hits his head and says shit! You’re an actually virgin. Then he explain what they meant as in biohazard poz toxic. That’s when I got scared but he said he was sure he was clean cuz he would know. After that I started doing my homework and that’s when my eyes and mind were opened to the poz community and I did the libra thing and didn’t judge or anything I was getting more intensely attracted to it. And was intrigued how people considered it brotherhood and family. And my mind thinks the same tho. Everyone no matter orientation or religion or race are the maker of their own destinies. And the bond or live or brotherhood you can feel from that community is deep. But the sad truth is majority of the human race will never except us if the poz community or except why we think this way but in the end, others judgments or mean looks or hurtful words don’t matter. They don’t matter. All that matters is your happiness and who makes that happy even brighter for you.
I didn’t choose to have a HIV/poz kink my cock did, when day I was scrolling through Tumblr and found a short but very verbal clip of a man walking into someones dark hotel room and asking the guy inside “do you want some positive cum?” Morally I was shocked! “Who would want such a thing?” I thought to myself but My cock had never been so hard “you do”, it said to me with a powerful organism (first if many that night) I’ve been chasing in and off ever since.
I grew up right when prep was becoming a thing and I had so much risky sex as a teen, the thought of being infected arouses me. And the thought of men intentionally infecting bottoms makes me cum super hard.
A few years ago, just before covid, I connected with someone while traveling for work. We weren’t close enough to meet and weeks later the pandemic started, but we stayed in touch. A couple years later, as lockdowns lifted and people got vaccinated, he came to visit with a friend. We planned to meet up. He had a beautiful dick and some amazing tattoo art. I asked about one of them and he told me he got it when he found out he was HIV+. We started talking about that, and I knew I still wanted to hook up with him… I didn’t understand why, but it was a huge turn on for me. And just before he arrived, I had to go out of town for work. I totally missed him and I felt so badly. I tried to keep in touch, but I think he figured I had really just flaked on him. But ever since then, I’ve been chasing.
Being able to develop my full latex rubber fetish and wear a biohazard tattoo and having uninhibited sex at poz parties.
Not sure I am really a bugchaser or not . . . like I don’t want to be sick, but I think sex should be as close and complete as possible – so taking loads is the way it’s supposed to be. Sex without exchanging cum isn’t natural or complete and it hits me that it’s not right – just not complete or right unless you are totally open to everything. I don’t like condoms or meds: what will happen will happen and that is the way it supposed to be. But also there is an extra edge to taking chances and waiting to see what happens. I’ve been doing sex since I was like 14 and expected something would happen by now but I guess the guys my age are clean and on prep and the older ones are on meds and can’t transmit . . . but I really do get off on waiting to find out if I got something. I like looking at chaser sites online but don’t have to find guys online = easy to find guys everywhere. Also – I have thought about this a lot and think it is right for me – but I also sort of curious to know if I’ll change my mind after I get something like will I go weak and take meds or what.
For some reason I am EXTREMELY AROSED to taking Positive Seed. I watch a lot of Poz Porn and wish I could be the Bottom getting bred.
I’m a married man, married to a far-right homophobic cunt and contracting HIV/AIDS will be my way of “slapping her in the face”. What a way to find out your husband is a fag by being told he has AIDS!
The visceral intensity that goes with the risk and the taboo.
It turns me on.
Interests in contracting HIV started when a Partner threatened to breaks up if i contracted it.
As I get older I am more comfortable with the idea of receiving poz cum as it is getting more riskier I will die of something so it would be easier to accept.
Also the older I get the more it arouses me to have a gifted cum in me.
Whilst I didn’t intentionally set out to get poz, I was very aware of the biology and science and did intentionally avoid condom use, because I just didn’t get any pleasure from having a sex wearing a condom, after I tried it without.
I was aroused by posing stories for a long time before becoming an active barebacker. At first I selected negative guys then undetectable. But I think one of those was actually positive. I am sorry I don’t know because I always wanted an intentional poz conversion. I wonder if not having that makes me desire to be recharged and have poz on poz detectable sex more.
The idea of becoming poz is exciting because it seems to still be taboo, but the idea that a dude will breed and seed me and leave a lasting legacy is overwhelmingly exciting to me as a young guy as is the ability to share with others if that is what they want. So many young guys are happy to be seeded and not ask status and many are also not on Prep, so they are like me, accepting that whatever happens, happens! What a connection to have with someone!
Even though I am mostly a bottom… when I get pozzed, I so want to get in young college boys that don’t ask status and assume everyone is on PrEP and breed them. I won’t lie about my status, but something turns me on about pozzing guys who don’t ask.
As a straight man I lived through the AIDS epidemic in the 1980s and felt empathy and fear. Now I’m in my 60’s and the fear has become something else. It’s very sexual, and I can’t quite understand it. The idea of acquiring a STI has become erotic in my mind, but only if I acquire it from another man.
I have been chasing for ages and it is my destiny to become a gifter.
Q32. If it was not your intention to become poz, have you found ways to accept or embrace being poz and is there anything you would like to share that may have helped you achieve this that might help others in a similar situation?
We see it all around us; people who simply do not accept reality. That is pointless. Accepting and dealing with what is actually going on is a whole lot easier.
I never actively chased HIV, but I did always hope for it.
Giving it time.
I fully intended and actively chased becoming poz.
Q33. If you became infected with HIV on purpose, can you share more about your chasing experiences, such as what it’s like to be poz now, and whether this created any negative or positive impacts in your life?
My pool of sex mates has pretty well dried up, concurrent with my change in serostatus. Being poz for me has not been much a problem though. Most health metrics are pretty much unchanged. But I have friends who have advanced to AIDS diagnosis in the first year. HIV will affect us differently and we won’t know until we are experiencing it ourselves.
Being POZ is the best thing ever to have happened: its GENUINE; its HONEST, and its BAREBACK.
I loved chasing, playing unsafe with poz men while everyone was having safe sex made for great sex.
it has changed how I feel about myself and how to present myself to others, I am proud of who I am.
Yes there have been issues with health complications as I get older but that also happens to everyone. I have no regrets. I feel more confident being poz, I feel sexier being poz and still get turned on by chasers verbal gifters and still though poz and full blown chase and gift those like me so they don’t have to go 3 years chasing.
No negative impacts according to my feelings. The hard times in the first years (medication was bad) are covered by the exciting sexual life I had and still have.
My chasing experience was great as I was going to PNP Poz fuck parties, I have some negative impacts on my life but much more positive impacts with so many poz men wanting to fill my ass.
I love being poz and proud of it and poz sex is the best fucking sex on chems and actively chase guys with STI’s.
Being poz has been freeing for me personally. I am thankful for my gifter and the circumstances that fell into place to get knocked up. I don’t have to be shy about what I want and love helping others cast their cares away.
A negative has been the misunderstanding that a large part of the gay community has about u=u. But, the experiences that I do have are quite intense and make up for not having as many opportunities if I was still neg.
The only downside is stigma. There are quite a few who won’t even go out for coffee with a poz guy, detectable/undetectable not a factor.
Difficult to tell, because I can’t imagine / don’t know what life without being poz would be like. Since diagnosis, I have largely been single, apart from a relationship that involved domestic abuse and elements of coercive control at times. I guess I might have been able to have a relationship and meet a partner more easily if I was neg.
