There can be a multitude of reasons as to why we experience bug chasing desires or feel some kind of connection to bug chasing. Each one of these reasons can be deeply personal and some of us might have more than one reason that we resonate strongly with, while some of us are still struggling to understand why we have an interest in bug chasing. This article will explore a reason that involves two processes of human biology, by comparing human fertilization with HIV transmission.
Some bug chasers associate HIV transmission with pregnancy and when you stop for a moment to think about this, the initial part of each process could be considered to be quite similar. When it comes to human fertilization, an action takes place in the ampulla of the fallopian tube, which results in the sperm of the male going off in search of the egg inside the female, where there will be a fusion process to begin with. The successful outcome will be the creation of human life through the insemination process.
To elaborate further, the sperm is a cell that embarks on a journey through the female reproductive system with a single goal in mind, which is to meet and fuse with an egg. This union sets off a cascade of events, resulting in the formation of a single cell that carries the full genetic blueprint of a new human being. Once the sperm enters the egg, the genetic materials combine, replicate and divide, setting the stage for the development of an embryo and eventually a fetus. Out of the billions of sperm cells released, only a select few get the chance to reach the egg and even less will succeed in fertilizing it.
Similarly, the process with HIV infection results in HIV entering the body and going in search of CD4+ T cells, which then involves a fusion and replication process that results in CD4+ T cells becoming infected with the virus and the process continues as HIV goes off in search of other CD4+ T cells to infect inside the human body. The successful outcome through this process results in HIV being able to survive inside the body and thrive, just as a baby develops and grows stronger in the womb.
Following a similar path to the insemination process, HIV enters the body and embarks on a journey with a single goal in mind, which is to seek out CD4+ T cells, which are crucial elements of the immune system. Once inside the T cell, HIV hijacks the cell’s machinery to replicate itself, which often involves destroying the immune system’s defences in the process. The virus ingrates its genetic material into the host cell’s DNA and in doing so begins to produce new viral particles, that eventually burst out to infect more T cells to continue the cycle, which could be compared to the ejaculation process following an orgasm.
Whether it’s pregnancy or HIV transmission, both physical actions involve the use of sex and bodily fluids (or bodily fluid injection as an alternative to sexual intercourse). For those trying to become pregnant, the male will use the female’s vagina to thrust his penis, then release his semen (unless IVF is involved), which is bodily fluid that carries sperm to achieve the goal of creating life through sexual intercourse. A gift giver is offering his toxic semen and sperm, which is a fertilization variant to infect the person he is having sexual intercourse with, or this could also be achieved by injecting infected blood, also known as a poz infusion.
Both processes involve bodily fluids to alter the other person, with the female becoming pregnant and the bug chaser carrying the virus once they are infected with HIV. A fetus will use the human body to develop until a child is born and HIV will use the body to become stronger and continue to infect more T cells so it can survive and thrive. Bug chasing is very personal and each person will have their own reasons for wanting to chase the bug and become HIV-positive. For men who cannot have children and want to align their lives as closely as possible to what society might consider to be a normal sex life, it’s easy to see why someone might consider HIV infection as being similar to human fertilization.
It’s important to point out that whilst human fertilization and HIV infection might have similar beginnings, the final outcomes are completely different. Human fertilization can lead to the creation of life and after approximately 9 months, a baby is born and then leaves the body of the carrier. In comparison, HIV infection leads to life of HIV, at the same time the virus is destroying CD4+ T cells in the body of the carrier and at this point in time, the virus never leaves the body. When you consider external factors, a baby grows into a child and then an adult and if left unmedicated, HIV will also continue to grow as it multiples inside the human body and becomes stronger.
The biological collaboration between sperm and egg is different to the relationship between HIV and the CD4 T cell, but the overall concept that marks the initial phase of pregnancy and infection could be regarded as being similar. As bug chasers, we will often spend enormous amounts of time in search for reasons why we feel a connection to the virus. Sometimes we are looking for answers to satisfy our own curiosity and sometimes we are in search of a reason to give others. Taking the step to actively chase HIV; the virus that can lead to AIDS is very personal and is a decision that can only be made by each of us as the custodian of our own lives, which means the choice is yours and nobody elses.
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Thank you Jason for your encouragement in my quest to convert. I will do my utmost for this to happen& keep my ass & mouth available for Toxic loads at all times.Im so happy I found your web site I do wish I knew of other sites .like yours to help in my indever.When I have finally been converted I will decide on one of the tattoos for my lower back just above my ass.It will be either th Biohazard or the Scorpion with the bottom to be stung I do like that one its a good message for us Faggots to covert.Thank you again Jason ,will keep you posted.
I like this article very much & have decided to be more active in my quest for a gift giver.My lover of 10 years passed away in 2004 at age 89 of natural causes, he wa 33 yrs older then me & had 6 other lovers who had died of HIV I assumed I would be # 7 but unfortunately was not he was to old for erection & fucking me, giving me BJ”s was all he wanter to do & he was the best I ever knew at doing that.I have often thought of Bug Chasing & receiving the toxic gift in me,I will actively let strangers fuck me at will with no interdiction (preferably BLACK MEN) its an acquired taste.I will start by frequently going to bath houses for this & to become a total slut & whore there & in Gay Bars until I”m converted & then be a GIFT GIVER & wait for my Death.
Thank you for sharing more about yourself Billy and it’s nice to hear that your bug chasing desires have evolved over time and you now feel ready to take the next step. I’m sorry to hear about your lover passing away a few years ago and it sounds like he was a great gift giver, but it’s a shame he wasn’t able to convert you before he passed away. It sounds like the bug chasing seed has been planted firmly inside your mind and you’re looking forward to receiving the gift. Your plan to become infected sounds solid and I wish you the very best with your conversion and gift giving intentions.
This is a good one to read. Love this and love the comparison to describe what converting feels like for a lot of people in the community. As a chaser myself who’s had poz guys describe to me what it feels like being poz, it makes me feel like I can’t wait to be pregnant with the poz seed.
I absolutely loved reading this. It so refreshing to see such positive examples! Comparing the 2 is a perfect way to explain the process. It was incredibly arousing to read as well!
Dear Jason thanks so much for putting all this in words for us: yes to verbalise, to communicate to share ideas and feelings and thoughts like these are indeed so HELPFUL as it plays such a huge role in finding outselves to LOVE HIV and AIDS EVEN MORE!!! THANKS AGAIN
Great take on the process. I really love the juxtaposition of a traditionally heterosexual concept of pregnancy and a traditional homosexual concept of HIV conversion. Well done!
I love this ANAL-ogy 💋 Such a sweet comparison and so arousing to read. Wonderful and educational as well. Bravo!👏🏻
Thanks Jason, an interesting read. Thank you for writing it. My hope is that any who choose to go down the road to get infected do so without regret.
I’m glad you found this article interesting PozBear. I also hope anyone who goes down this road does so without regret and considers the pros and cons before making a decision. We have a lot of articles and resources here to help provide as much information as possible, along with external resources as well to inform and educate.
yes, for me it sounds so familiar: my wish to become “pregnant” – and the loss of regrets…
Thanks Peter. So a question to me by a former member here a couple of years ago that I found really helpful for me…. Why do you want to be pregnant?
Receiving toxic loads means for me getting life from another man and “hosting” something which is also a form of life. In the same time I find toxic men mostly more arousing and sexy because most of them (in my eyes) have become poz as a consequence of their piggy behaviour. which is for me sexual freedom.
All loads are great loads. Honestly we don’t know which ones are toxic and which aren’t. The rather significant window period with HIV means can test for poz, but we can’t test for neg. So it’s always a crap shoot. Even when a guys viral load is high there is maybe a 1% chance of getting infected. So, again, it’s a crapshoot. Perhaps just enjoy raw bareback sex with a variety of men? Test maybe once a year to detect whether there are any new hitchhikers?
Sexual freedom comes when we fully embrace it. We have freedom when we can fully enjoy our sex mates rather than a bug.
Treatment at least as I experience among my regular poz community is more around comfort. Some might feel sexy when affected by disease; us humans can be remarkably resilient; but often at a point disease interrupts pleasure and some form of treatment seems to make sense. Doing this dates back to “the godfasther of chasing Tim Tyler”. There is no shame in treatment. There are no awards passing on treatment. At that point it is down to “how to feel good right now”…
Glad to see you’re back with a new article, Jason! Just an anecdote, but I know a long-term serodiscordant couple who finally made the leap this year. One of their straight siblings posted about trying for another baby and the ensuing fertility issues in the family group chat. They (the gay ones) downloaded some pregnancy helper apps and put up a calendar where they marked off the positive husband’s expected viral load after coming off his anti-retroviral “birth control”. I cracked a joke that the negative one was ovulating when his immune system was hit for six by the cold and sinus infection that’d been going around his office, which gave them both a good chuckle. I think it’s great to introduce some play and humor into the process, which can be time-consuming and an emotional roller coaster.
Thanks Paul, it’s great to be back writing articles again and I look forward to publishing another one soon. I’m really happy to hear about the long-term serodiscordant couple you know making the leap this year based and associating their seroconversion plans with pregnancy. I love the joke you made and it’s definitely great to introduce some adventure into the process, because you’re right, chasing can be time consuming and very emotional. I also think it’s wonderful that your friends will be bonded together through this lifelong commitment, so it’s going to be very special for them. Thank you for sharing this Paul with us and I would love to hear how things are progressing with them, as it sounds like they might be expecting soon, so if you’re happy to share any updates, please do.
I’m not always a fan of euphemisms but I can totally get down with the parallels here. I also helps us talk in code in public.
I completely understand and I do think talking in code in public is a good idea, because it can alleviate any backlash if others are not on the same page as us about being poz-friendly.
I agree, @masterskorp, sometimes the code words are useful…but i also greatly admire you and Marc’s openness that was on display very proudly at the event that got covered in the gay press where you first came to the attention of so many of us. I think open displays such as you and your boy Marc who is carrying your precious seed helps to dispel feelings of guilt or shame in those of us chasing the gift of HIV, and for that, I thank you sincerely.
Great recap of the processes, Jason…I definitely agree that there is a similar mindset involved in impregnating and gifting HIV…One only has to look at today’s gay porn scenes to hear guys begging to get “bred,” or saying “knock me up,” (even while ostensibly being on PrEP and the rigorous testing for STDs that most porn actors go through). The two experiences – impregnating and HIV conversion – are definitely two sides of the same coin. I’m happy you’re back with articles here on CC !!
I appreciate your thoughts on this Van and thank you for your comment. 🙂 I love it when I hear a man saying he wants to be knocked up and it’s the breeding mindset that creates this powerful connection through the seed that feels so natural and special and this is an association I also share whenever I’m receiving another man’s seed within me. I agree that impregnating and HIV conversion are two sides of the same coin and I think this resonates with others as well based on the verbal connection we hear in porn and our own personal lives when men beg to be “bred” or “knocked up” as they’re barebacking and wanting to be seeded. It feels good to be writing articles again Van and I’m making some changes in my personal life to give me some extra time to write articles and spend more time in the forums.
And as usual, Jason, I end up reading your articles with one hand on my cock.
Thank you Van and I really do enjoy writing these articles and I do sometimes struggle to avoid erections and pre-cum leakage whilst writing them. 😉
A fascinating article. I’ve seen the language of “breeding” and “pregnancy” used, of course, and understood the parallels, at least in a trivial sense; but never thought about it more deeply than that.
The urge to procreate is deep-seated and powerful – of course it is, as without it the human race would come to an end. In (many) gay men, this would express itself as the need to “cum inside”. In my own sexual desire, this doesn’t connect with “making a baby” – just with the intense connection that comes with insemination.
However, when I add my desire as a chaser (which for me starts with the roller-coaster thrill of will it / won’t it), the joy of extending the “life” of the HIV from my gifter comes into the picture – it now has life in me. And when (!) my status changes to poz, I can see myself having the desire to potentially spread and extend that “life” beyond me.
So the deep procreation desire (though not of babies) resonates with a desire to prolong the “life” of the HIV. This is deeply erotic to me.
Thanks for your kind words about this article Dec. I’m a deep thinker, so I like to delve into my things and maybe sometimes I go too deep. haha The process of insemination and infection both involve procreating within the human body, which is where this parallel comparison originated from. The seed from one human to another has the ability to change lives and create life, so for those of us who like being bred with cum, the pregnancy association can be more about carrying the virus within us. Similar to a woman carrying a baby, only our version of pregnancy is different, but is captured through the same breeding process. I also resonate with the procreation process in the same way you mention with it being erotic, not through creating a baby, but through letting the virus survive within us. Thanks for sharing your thoughts Dec, I appreciate what you have said here.
I dont remember my original thoughts about wanting HIV pumped in me, but with the poz fuck buds near the end of my chase that need for HIV in me was definitely akin to wanting to be “pregnant”. I just remember it wasn’t just about the virus but about their virus growing in me and when I started blood slamming, it was kind of desiring their virus and their DNA from all the STDs they had growing inside of me also. I remember telling one of them being pregnant only lasted nine months.
Thanks for your comment Nick. You’ve captured what I was trying to share in this article perfectly when you mention the desire to have the virus growing inside you. The virus entering your body via seed or blood and growing within your body shares a similarity with pregnancy and this could partly be why we yearn to be bred and filled with fertile seed as we’re getting fucked raw. I appreciate your insights and thanks for your comment Nick.